drama bestfriends finally ended huh?

drama? yes! of course! 100% true! what type of drama? hell i dont know but i do know this. it's over. it's the end. anyway, this is how the drama started.

remember my last post about about me feeling weord with my gang HHIKA? well yeah. it's about them, and finally i've told them. so here how it went, i got to school early in the morning. well, i actually wanted to see babe qilah and haziq before anything happens so yeah, met babe and hugged her, that haziq and we talked. then came husna and i told her that i wanted to tell them something. then when ismah came and kaka wonz, i told them about it. i was crying~ yes i was, and they were like, bru sadar what they've done. but i was wrong. bt before that, as they were still in a daze of shock. i walked away towards haziq, giving him my glasses and then cried. yeah so? he was the only person that i was used to there so i cried at him lh! so yeah~ he tried to cheer me up but ismah husna and wani was standing next to me. trying to say something but couldn't. when ismah started to say something, i know what she was going to say, 'maksud mu, mun kmu inda buat aku c2 aku inda sadar lh ah?' and she said awu and i said 'time 2008 ko buat slh aku maafkn jua iss' thought my voice broke at the end and i cried again at haziq. (he was standing next to me) they told me to meet up at husna's class. i was like, why do i have to go to her class? this is about me? why am i going to their class to discuss about me? why dont they go to my class instead?

so as i got to husna's class, with haziq at my hand, still want him to be there. when they saw me coming, i stood outside, looking at haziq, didnt want to think about it or else i'll start crying again. then, when they got out, haziq ran out where i was looking at him, wanting him to be there with me! and i later found out there actually told them to go. i mumbled shit, and listened to what they had to say. they told me what they did was the right thing at that time, reporting me to the teachers was the right thing. that was what a bestfriend would do. yeah right! a bestfriend should advice their beatfriends! like hell they think that was the right thing! like hell they think i was alright with it, like hell i wouldnt get angry! so yeah...then they said if the even advice me they were afraid i would get angry at them until i didnt want to be friends with them again. well....that did happened, i had enough. they've hurt me too much, i've been crying for 3 night in a row thinking about this. so yeah, at the end, i left. i didnt want to head any of it, i had enough of heartbreaks for one life time for a friend that i love. thought i've lost them twice and they will lose me twice.

after that, i went towards haziq....okay shut up with me going towards him sja mun nangis ia mun nangis ia...but true! aku nangis ia ku aga wh! so yeah, i met him on my way towards class and then cried again. when break was over, it was irk and then we didnt studied yet cause the text books wasnt given yet. anyway, so yeah we were told to do our owh business so i made a letter for HHIA. and yeah, after school was over, i gave it to ismah. looking at her smiling cause i was glade it was over. i told them sorry and my last words was 'thnks for the memories datul =)'
so yeah, it was over for HHIA..but not khairah. she's different, she said sorry before i could cry, she said she wanted to apologies earlier that i thought, and she accepted me if i wanted to be just friends. so it was better that friends, she was my bestfriends. the only that stayed for me.

so yeah, it was over. HHIA was done for me. K reminds. thought they maybe still think im their bestfriends, but it's over for me. im done, i've been badly damaged by them. and i've been crying alot. it's been last year, i've been crying since last year, i might have lost my tear factory by now, and it did. im calm now, i dont cry anymore. when everyone tried to talk to me about them, i just smile and laugh like it wasnt a big deal. but it was so yeah, pity me~ but im fine. cause i know who is my real bestfriend already. and i'll cherish them =)