first day in school!

after a month of holiday from o'lvl we're finally back to school. it was such a cheerful day and everyone was hugging and smiling and laughing. me, well, i was nervous! i was going to see him and we werent suppose to talk. and i was like o-m-g! but i got pass it by not looking at him even thought i would know where he would sit and i can actually notice him in an instant. yeah, i know. its so sad.

anyway, so i got to school very happy and nervous as well as with a LOT of present in hand and in my new bag. it was december gifts from my trip to KK Pontianak and KL. anyway so i went to look for a fresh table since i was there first out of all my gangs. so i sat there. awkwardly alone and have nothing else to do...other than stare at him from a far and hoping he wouldnt look at me. even thought deep in my heart i know it bloomed whenever i see his face. my gawd!!.

anyway (again), i waited for my friend and when they came slowly to school, we started laughing and screaming and well, just being crazy. hey, we were girls gone wild a few months back xp hahaha. so we went to the audi, me telling alll the dirty secrets to my one fav bestfriend who i trust the most. while the principle welcomed us all back we talk and talk and talk. hey, i cant blame anyone for girls being so talkative. and the teacher sitting exactly behind us didnt seem to care about it. but i did listen to it a bit like how we're suppose to be mature enough to start studying harder than out o'lvl and crap like that.

then they went to talk about disciplines and awwww man. we're been listening to it for 6 years straight --, we're teenagers, we cant actually obey every rule. even the teacher said 'i want you all to read the book rules and regulation so you can break the rules' more specific she said 'cg mau kamu khatam tu buku atu spya kamu dpt langar peraturan skulah' yup. i heard it with my own two ears, one being talking with my friend that is ;p

so we went out of the audi with a last announcement 'after break please go to your respective classes that have been set for each and one of you' breaks ends at 10. we went out at 955. oh wow, great. so we didnt managed to eat, and i went straight to my new unknown class, General Paper.

when i entered the class, being on the 3rd floor no less --" , everyone looked at me, like i was the center of attention in that silent little class. i saw a few farmiliar faces but not that close with them, some i was even awkward cause it was his classmate --" ,thought she did smile, so i went to the other side of the class and found an old friend's friend which i find a nice person. so i sad next to her and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited until the sir finally said 'okay i think we just start with out small introductory on Genaral Paper.' and you know how it went.

after GP was my PS which means personal studies =3 so i was free of class, and we were supposedly asked to study privately and find that time to look for out teachers and all that. but hey, it was the first day of school! why would we start looking for out teachers --" so after PS was Lunch which was for another hour. yes, i got 2 hours of freedom =3

and during that time, he as in the him i've been talking about msg-ed me. he was asking where i was. i knew what it was, he wanted to borrow my laptop for a while so i told him i was at the canteen simple as that --, hahaha. then when i met him,

'd mana ko ne?'

aaa....canteen'

'--" awuu....krg bah ehh, belurus ;p '

hahaha, canteen =)

so he went to follow me take my laptop from my bag and he was standing next to babe where i notice he got taller! damn him, now i'm shorter! so yeah, he borrowed my laptop and i had to sit at my seat for almost class time (1pm) where he actually told me he was going back at 1230. i almost thought he brought it to his house --" but yeah, he went and returned my laptop still feeling the happy feeling when i'm with him yet starting to get used to it.

after lunch i went to class, maths was on my timetable and i went to the class but no one was there. i waited up til 10 minutes, being there 5 minutes early and still no one was there, so i went to cek back my timetable. turns out i had Chemistry! NOT maths and well, try running in baju kurung with a heavy bag that contains a laptop with books and a heavy pencil case, down from the 2nd floor to the other side of the school, climbed the 3rd floor of another block and when you reached class, everyone was looking at you including the teacher. what was worst, i didnt know a single female in there except for 2 girls which their seat was full! so sadly enough, i had to sit behind ALONE. T.T

after maybe 5 minutes, i thought it was longer cause i was sweating like shit and i smell --" and i was preoccupied with trying not to diffuse my smell to the whole lab and a lot of this was running in my head like the teacher might kill me and stuff when she said, alright class, thats it for today, i'll see you tomorrow' when i looked at my watch, phone, it was still 30 minutes till class ended. so yup. wasted my time running around the school --"

so i called my mom and i went home. fell asleep in the car due to exhaustion.

is it that easy to move on?

your bare head.

i'm some what intersted in hats right now =O enjoy~

cute~

colourful =D

bought this for my bestfriend, didnt bought for my own sadly

an All Time Low Knit Winder Hat ='/ i wanted to buy it, but the website couldnt accept my friends debit card T.T

you get that feeling where every bad thing that have happen to you are erased? well, i'm in cloud 9 =3

The big IF

there is this guy and a girl. they were friends, and it lead to love. usually, people seem to think, hey it'll be a happy ending. but sometimes it isnt and people move past that. but do people ever wonder what happens after they break up? what if they get back together? what if their sworn enemies. what if their friends. what if they became bestfriends?

like, seriously, theres a big IF in everything and you can never be certain about everything. its just like how i thought they can always be friends. but now, it seem like she still loves him. and he seem to love her too. but they put their love aside and they put their worries first. they wish each other happiness even if it hurts them in return.

so tell me what type of relationship is that? are they actually still lovers, or their just lying their ass off with each other. his jealous, shes hurt. come on. they talk particularly everyday. and yet how do they expect to move on by that? can they? or are they just going to ignore the feeling they feel for each other.

you know the funny thing is, they both think that they can never be together anymore. not now, but their sure there is a second chance. but when are they going to take that second chance where its already right there in front of them. what sign do they have to see or get if for them to be together again?

nothing.

so tell me this, why are they in love with each other where each of them are wiling to give each other away. they knew they wanted each other. so why not?

First love (a little think called love)

i didnt know this story even exist until my friend introduced it to me. its a Thailand movie and i have never tried to watch movies like this. even thought it was a love story. so it actually shocked me that even Thailand people have good looking guys! =O (i live in a limited way of life, sorry for the wrong judgement with good looking guys)

anyway, its a story about a really ugly girl who fell in love with her senior. he was so good looking that a lot of girl admire him and try to steal his heart out. so this girl, her name is Nam, with the help of her friends, try to show her senior, his name is Shone, that she likes him.they had a love book, and used every method in for Shone to fall in love with Nam. Sadly, nothing worked and Nam was always 1 sept behind everyone else.

ugly duckling Nam

there was even a scene where Nam left Shone chocolates on his bike but it actually melted due to the fact that she and her friends forgot they live in a tropical climate. there was also a scene where her friends gave her a make over and she turnout to be yellow. but it did got Shone's attention and she was left yelling her way out happily.

by her 3rd year, she got whitter AND more beautiful. she gain more admires but Shone never seem to notice her until when shone's old friend Top transfered to their school and Top fell head over heels for Nam. he proposed and they dated. long story short, the broke up after that cause Nam was never in love with Top, she told Top that she was in love with someone else.

the duck changed to a beautiful swan, 3rd yr Nam

so Top then told Shone about it and he begged Top not to be with Nam, cause he loved her so much that the thought of his beatfriend being with the girl he loved hurt him. Shone agreed.

Shone managed to hit a penalty goal and Nam was there watching as she was practicing being a drum major.

by the end of the year, Shone was going to Bangkok for a football scholarship and Nam was going to America staying with her father. but before that, she confessed her love to Shone but she was too late. Shone was already with someone else. it was a REALLY sad scene btw. i cried D':

Nam confession by the pool giving Shone a white rose with a card that had the Mr. Button.

after falling into the pool and saying she was okay. poor Nam =/

Well, i'm not going to tell you the ending cause i dont really wanna spoil you people if your interested ;p but i will tell you that Shone had a baby on the first scene of the movie. *gasped!* xD

I'll always have my pooh around.

POOH!!! (left) my lovely cutee stuffed animal =3 gehehe. it was a present by my bestfriend and i always have it lying around in my house, my room, next to my pillow =3 i even bring it with me when i'm overseas. anyway, yes, its that important to me. its actually helped me sleep if i dont have my ayaa around. anyway, so when i'm sad or lonely, i would hug that stuffed animal, my baby pooh, and it'll wipe my tears away. yeah well, so what i have a stuff animal, everyone have it too sometimes. =)

Honest Night

you know how you and your loved one always talk and talk and talk and talk and talk~ and theres always something you wanted to ask but your not sure if its true or not when they answer. so one night, i was talking on the internet with my love one and i told him,

'wanna have an honest night?'

'whats that?'

'i dunno, i was just being random =O but do you?'

'haha okay what is it?'

'aaa how about we both be honest tonight. and just for tonight, if you get what i mean'

'and then what?'

'umm...then we start with the questions?'

so yeah. that night i actually knew a lot after that and like wise he also knew about it too. thought we mostly asked about stupid stuff, you guys dont really have to know. so we havent played that game for a while until tonight. i didnt knew if he actually wanted to play it cause well...we werent together anymore =o

so we played, i was really bored so i asked anything that was in my head. it was funny cause it was a really detailed answer. and then, somewhere in that conversation we managed to let our feelings out, yet again. so being brothers and sisters was a good idea yet a very bad idea. well, not going to talk about that. but it did worked. we both managed to say what we felt about each other and well, it wasnt like it was awkward. it was good to finally let it all out.

thus, having an honest night was a good idea for me and him x)

is the fact that I love you

Love, like a tree,
sends its roots down deep
so when the storms of life abound
and the winds of adversity blow,
it shakes and bends
and goes with the flowbut doesn't break or fall.

And during times of drought
it drives its roots down deeper
so whatever comes and goes—
summer, winter, spring, or fall,
the good times and the bad—
it stands the test of all.

– Dick Innes

when i dont message you,
Doesn't mean,
i forgot about you,
im just giving you time,
to miss me.

Without you my days are
Moanday,
Tearsday,
Wasteday,
Thirstday,
Fightday,
Shatterday,
Sadday.




love is the strongest of all gift,
love is the purpose of our life,
to love and be loved,
makes our life wonderful!
I LOVE YOU

all for you <3 haziq syukri =)

Blame PhotoScape for getting me addictive.

hayyyy, nice eh?? or not cause well....i'm just starting~ ;p this is not photoshop but its photoscape. i know not fun~ but it is very addictive otherthan photoshop which i think im not sure how am i going to get it. cant download it thats for sure.

i got this yesterday and well, it's very addictive, this is the first picture i made. then i went on with ayam's and then the both of us with 247 xp hehehe so yeah. i'm working on a picture of A.D.A later abd i've done MB3C and Troop 1017 already. not goanna upoad that cause i didnt want people to get annoyed xp

so enjoy~~

ayam <3

247 <3

the person i love =D

yes~ i know~ something that is worth reading is not the person i love who you people dont know off~ what do i care? it's my blog ;p

the person i love come by the name Mohammad Haziq Syukri Bin Sukor, loves the color Orange and is crazy with the game warcraft DOTA. i for once, played Dota far before he even know me, but i suck at it and just played it once~ so what do i care? i dont know how to play anymore. anyway~ no going to complain about Dota here knowing he loves it and afraid he would read this~ hoping he would though. anyway~ i feel like i've told this story a hundredth times already. being a playboy and a so call Handsome and Hot to the core, i dont really get people.

i heard of this infamous playboy ever since 2007. then saw him with one of my friend, he seem nice to me but i didnt give a damn. 2008, heard so much rumors about him which made me hate him with no such reason~ hahaha, then 2009. he was in the same class with me. so the first thing i wanted to do is ignore him and dont even want to talk with him. but unfortunately i sat next to him -.- finally, after 2 months of never talking....we talk. i found out he was a down to earth guy, sweet and caring all over. then i heard people call him hot and handsome....well i thought he was normal. no offense, im not talking big cause i dont think i am, but really...his not that hensem or even hot as people call him. anyway so yeah, we got too close and well.....i started to have a crush. not going to tell the whole story but then he had a crush on me too and with a lot of problems we finally got together after a year of knowing each other.

i never get bored with him~ i wonder why would i be since i love him so much~ i dont know why but every time i'm with him, my worried would just go away~ well, after i tell him about it. i hate lying to him and he know how to read my face, i seriously hate keeping something from him and with that he know all about my life. even he read my private diary~ and my private diary cant even stop talking about him~ i need a life sometimes but i cant do that, not now when i'm still a love addict. ;p feeling self cautious for the people who would read this, i should keep things in mind. but yeah~ his my life for now~ i know i'm still younggg, he might not be my husband in the future, but so what?? i dont even know who is my husband~ what if he really was my husband?? then i would ne happy of course, and if he wasnt, then fine. i'm not going to go get mad at the universe because of that. if i love him now, then i would love my husband more.

alright, so knowing him a year get me to know a bit about him, for one thing, his a pretty calm guy, well....if you get on his nerves, i couldn't stop him. his a good guy, who tried to help everyone...that he know~ duh. very smart other than maths which i got to beat him at all the time =3 *smug* a playful guy, never stop with the jokes and pocking me on the ribs *i'm very tickle-ish* very belurus until i just pinch his cheeks red. oh yes....slim =3

okay, now i forgot where i'm going with this..... oh yes! so, that's just how he is. calm and funny. and one thing i dont really expect from him is that his a very honest guy. from what i heard of a playboy, his very honest, and after knowing him that long, his not even a playboy at all. he just tend to get a lot of fans and being friendly isnt a good thing for a guy like him ;p i just wanna talk about him actually *smug* so if you find this annoying, then stop reading ;p

we became best friends before getting together, and he was just like my brother as much as he is as my.......lover. still getting that hard on my mind hahah. so yes, his my life. his my best friend, my brother and my boyfriend....his too important for me to lose =)

have i forgot to mention that he love playing the guitar?
^^,

never tell a soul

promises. yeah right! hahaha okay what i did today~ STUDY! it was cca actually and we went to angkat2 semua barang guling tangan like hell. after that people starting to play all the insturement and it was a big headache cause it was too loud and we were in a small room no less ==" so i was from the middle shuffle towards near cg salnee at the door!!! anyway, after that was done and we went to the canteen and i saw lamak ^^ thought she was still annoyed of seeing my face as expected. anyway, after that i went to class and ate there. then came adyl *which i cal him fadyl dont know why* anyway, after eating lunch we went outside for where the boys usually hang out there. i dont know why they love to hang out infront of my class...i mean our class. it's where all the boys get together or something. *tmpt maksiat LOL* and my class is really great for dating as well. the windows are blocked so no one from the outside could even see what the people inside is doing.

anyway, most of the poeple who was there are couples~ merza, fifi, feefah and *TuuT* name not published. anyway, it was pretty boring and played the balck and white puzzle from home. haha it was so boring that i actaully bring that out to play with it which made a lot of people want to play with it as well. okay, after that....daddy went to play futsal thought it was after a bit of discussion with the other boys that he was leaving the football team and it was a big drama for him a bit until he was stress~ anyway after that it was okay that he joined iskandar's team i think. so after that he went to play futsal and it was left with me adn feefah since qilah went home early.

oh yeah, after that...before daddy went to play futsal, i walked around with daddy and we walked pass our old class, where it all started and the next door was this girl who was holding her half open tudong and laughing like hell or hysteria. i was like....who the hell is this girl? she is so crazy. then after that daddy suddenly said 'cm baiee mukanya ah' something like that lh~ i think he said baie~ or not i just said baie and i asked him about it. he told me it was LAMAK and i......'ia wh tu?? wow!' cause i seriously act like i didnt know her..more like i thought she was just a normal student who went crazy for no such reason at all but actually it does...because of us~ hahahahaha.

after that it was me and feefah being two lonely girls doing nothing and me looking at some of daddy's pictures. and i actually stuck at this one particular picture. i looked at it until my sis suddenly calls me saying that she wants to pick me up NOW. i was like...hell kul 3 whhh and she as awal aneeeeee. so yes i went home after tell daddy about it and went to sleep until it was 7 casue i was hungry and noises was heards from downstairs.

when i woke up i went to on my fb *trus x ah casue i want to see daddy* and then....i dont know. i just memalui and wall to wall with daddy xD i love him so much hahahahahahah

so bored at school until we took 100+ pictures!

well...today was great except that i woke up late and was only give 12 minutes to get everything ready for school!!!! so i was in a rush and i even said 'damn! shit shit shit!!' when i woke up. so when i got to school, i was busy doing my homework and actually didnt have much time with daddy. then during break, i ate my breakfast leftovers cause the canteen was seriously pack and i hate it. anyway, so after having a bio practical, then chemistry as well, while physics is.....alright. we mostly spent our time playing with the balance. so yes its was alright.

afternoon, i then went to spent it with my babe, i took out my sis lappy which i actually bring it to school and we looked for some internet. there werent any so i gave up on that and i went to look for the camera of the lappy. when i found it we took pictures as in me and babe and it was so much that it actually reached 100+!!! so yes....some of the pictures are me and qilah...okay, most of them are me and qilah. then when feefah came we took some pictures with her and after that when haziq came and rasyid i pulled haziq and we took some pictures as well....hmm..oh yes...at the end of the pictures where it was about to strike 4...we had this great idea of imitating lamak. i know how she usually smile so i make that smile and then took a picture of it. i was like, okayyy it looked a bit the same...but im not wearing my glasses, so yes..i took qilah;s glasses and take a picture with that smile again and actually it did look the same. in fact it did look the same like 100% and if ur not even looking properly, u might see it as her rather than me which i would seriously not take pictures like that. it's so not me.

okay, so yes, it;s very rude of us but we miss her hahaha.lamak anyway these are some of the pictures from today

not that cute huh?

smilyyy

hmmmmm

daddy! kna pjl begmbr ;p

LOVE

siapa nhhhh?? LAMAK!

All time low addicted

hehehe..ikay i have to stop laughing at the first word of my post, anyway, ALL TIME LOW! im so addicted of them x) they have been singing since they were in high school and finally debuted in 2008. they have 5 albums i think and im loving every song they have. i couldnt find any of their other albums other that nothing personal and so worng, it's right so i asked it frlom Brandon x) thnks to him i get a lot of their songs and currently im listening to them hehehe. i love them hahaha memajal.

they were high school friends and they gre up together i guess. anyway after that what else? the singers? i mean singer is Alex Gaskarth, the lead guitar was Jack Barakat, Zack Merrick(the cute one i think) was on the bass and Rian Dawson is the drummer. their from Baltimore, Maryland and they once have a mix cd with simple plan i think. anyway, i found some of their pictures and it was like...funny and stupid!!! hahahaha but mostly cool x)

from left-Rian, Jack, Alex, Zack! <3>

Zack giving a cute look *melting ku eh labih!*

oh yes, Jack and Zack are sometimes panat....as well as Alex. Rian is the only pendiam there.

Zack hugging Jack, cba th aku xD

Zack's old hair is so not cute and i found this at google hahaha, superhero all time low niceeee

the photographer babe

yeah~ well, we were bored while waiting for cg salnee to get ready for jogging. so yeah~ while waiting, lucky daddy stayed bck so babe suddenly started taking pictures of the two of us. it was funny and daddy was being pemalu sl inda suka begambar~ sooooo cute x) okay~ so some of the pictures was with me while the others was with him. mostly it was with his mobile and my phone was playing with me so i couldn't received any of the pictures.