stupidity.

i knew something was going to happen. and i knew it was my fault. so why the hell did i even started it.

yeah. i ended up crying my ass off last night. i even woke up with a swollen eye. haish. i know its stupid buy hey. what am i suppose to do? i miss him and he was pushing me away. i know its was for the best but still ==" i am so fucking sad. and i dont know what to do. i dont wanna see him as an ex. i want to see him as someone important, someone i trust. someone...i can depend on. is that love? is it stupid to think that? cause............what am i suppose to do? to not fall for you yet to still need you.

first day in school!

after a month of holiday from o'lvl we're finally back to school. it was such a cheerful day and everyone was hugging and smiling and laughing. me, well, i was nervous! i was going to see him and we werent suppose to talk. and i was like o-m-g! but i got pass it by not looking at him even thought i would know where he would sit and i can actually notice him in an instant. yeah, i know. its so sad.

anyway, so i got to school very happy and nervous as well as with a LOT of present in hand and in my new bag. it was december gifts from my trip to KK Pontianak and KL. anyway so i went to look for a fresh table since i was there first out of all my gangs. so i sat there. awkwardly alone and have nothing else to do...other than stare at him from a far and hoping he wouldnt look at me. even thought deep in my heart i know it bloomed whenever i see his face. my gawd!!.

anyway (again), i waited for my friend and when they came slowly to school, we started laughing and screaming and well, just being crazy. hey, we were girls gone wild a few months back xp hahaha. so we went to the audi, me telling alll the dirty secrets to my one fav bestfriend who i trust the most. while the principle welcomed us all back we talk and talk and talk. hey, i cant blame anyone for girls being so talkative. and the teacher sitting exactly behind us didnt seem to care about it. but i did listen to it a bit like how we're suppose to be mature enough to start studying harder than out o'lvl and crap like that.

then they went to talk about disciplines and awwww man. we're been listening to it for 6 years straight --, we're teenagers, we cant actually obey every rule. even the teacher said 'i want you all to read the book rules and regulation so you can break the rules' more specific she said 'cg mau kamu khatam tu buku atu spya kamu dpt langar peraturan skulah' yup. i heard it with my own two ears, one being talking with my friend that is ;p

so we went out of the audi with a last announcement 'after break please go to your respective classes that have been set for each and one of you' breaks ends at 10. we went out at 955. oh wow, great. so we didnt managed to eat, and i went straight to my new unknown class, General Paper.

when i entered the class, being on the 3rd floor no less --" , everyone looked at me, like i was the center of attention in that silent little class. i saw a few farmiliar faces but not that close with them, some i was even awkward cause it was his classmate --" ,thought she did smile, so i went to the other side of the class and found an old friend's friend which i find a nice person. so i sad next to her and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited until the sir finally said 'okay i think we just start with out small introductory on Genaral Paper.' and you know how it went.

after GP was my PS which means personal studies =3 so i was free of class, and we were supposedly asked to study privately and find that time to look for out teachers and all that. but hey, it was the first day of school! why would we start looking for out teachers --" so after PS was Lunch which was for another hour. yes, i got 2 hours of freedom =3

and during that time, he as in the him i've been talking about msg-ed me. he was asking where i was. i knew what it was, he wanted to borrow my laptop for a while so i told him i was at the canteen simple as that --, hahaha. then when i met him,

'd mana ko ne?'

aaa....canteen'

'--" awuu....krg bah ehh, belurus ;p '

hahaha, canteen =)

so he went to follow me take my laptop from my bag and he was standing next to babe where i notice he got taller! damn him, now i'm shorter! so yeah, he borrowed my laptop and i had to sit at my seat for almost class time (1pm) where he actually told me he was going back at 1230. i almost thought he brought it to his house --" but yeah, he went and returned my laptop still feeling the happy feeling when i'm with him yet starting to get used to it.

after lunch i went to class, maths was on my timetable and i went to the class but no one was there. i waited up til 10 minutes, being there 5 minutes early and still no one was there, so i went to cek back my timetable. turns out i had Chemistry! NOT maths and well, try running in baju kurung with a heavy bag that contains a laptop with books and a heavy pencil case, down from the 2nd floor to the other side of the school, climbed the 3rd floor of another block and when you reached class, everyone was looking at you including the teacher. what was worst, i didnt know a single female in there except for 2 girls which their seat was full! so sadly enough, i had to sit behind ALONE. T.T

after maybe 5 minutes, i thought it was longer cause i was sweating like shit and i smell --" and i was preoccupied with trying not to diffuse my smell to the whole lab and a lot of this was running in my head like the teacher might kill me and stuff when she said, alright class, thats it for today, i'll see you tomorrow' when i looked at my watch, phone, it was still 30 minutes till class ended. so yup. wasted my time running around the school --"

so i called my mom and i went home. fell asleep in the car due to exhaustion.

Awful.

its awful. why? cause i cant do it. it hurts. fuck this.

feel like doing this *picture below* except i'm not that pretty and i cant find a rose right now. and whats that red thing on her hands?

Annoying!

annoyed. someone tired to hacked to my twitter ac --" really? when i tried to log in, twitter kept telling me that my ps was wrong somehow. so i went to checked my Hotmail and apparently, twitter send me a message that my twitter ac was being hacked so it changed my ps on its own --" gee thanks twitter, mind to tell me who?? cause its frekin annoying.... now i had to change my ps again. urgh. annoying people hacking my ac, dont you have a life???

The big IF

there is this guy and a girl. they were friends, and it lead to love. usually, people seem to think, hey it'll be a happy ending. but sometimes it isnt and people move past that. but do people ever wonder what happens after they break up? what if they get back together? what if their sworn enemies. what if their friends. what if they became bestfriends?

like, seriously, theres a big IF in everything and you can never be certain about everything. its just like how i thought they can always be friends. but now, it seem like she still loves him. and he seem to love her too. but they put their love aside and they put their worries first. they wish each other happiness even if it hurts them in return.

so tell me what type of relationship is that? are they actually still lovers, or their just lying their ass off with each other. his jealous, shes hurt. come on. they talk particularly everyday. and yet how do they expect to move on by that? can they? or are they just going to ignore the feeling they feel for each other.

you know the funny thing is, they both think that they can never be together anymore. not now, but their sure there is a second chance. but when are they going to take that second chance where its already right there in front of them. what sign do they have to see or get if for them to be together again?

nothing.

so tell me this, why are they in love with each other where each of them are wiling to give each other away. they knew they wanted each other. so why not?

Cbox problem!

oh no! i actually deleted my hotmail on THIS email. i really wonder how i managed to still have my blog =O anyway. had to make a new cbox. please take note people =)

oh and this is to me, WHY THE HELL DID I DELETE MY OWN EMAIL!!! now i have to make a new cbox.

can i scream now?

to my fellow cousins who have known about this, dont worry~ im just releasing stress =)


so can i scream now??? the past 2 weeks, i had a fight, not that big of a deal okay? then after that, when we were ok~ my friend....a very dear and close friend of mine had a fight with their partner, so i got to advise them a bit, that happen for like.....a week or so~ and it's actually up until now. then, just as that was over, then my new problem came....a bit of a nightmare actually~ a real one if i could think. im not telling what happen but i guess it's just like that, it's like you cant change it if you just let it be, we have to do something to let it change, yeah, you dont get it, but this is freakin killing me and also making me sad, what is it trying to tell? what does it mean? why now? why make me wonder? too much questions, little time to answer......

yeah, i know you dont get me at all =')

V go to hell

hayyyyy apannn yeahhh some of my friends have heard abt this V guy and also well most of the class ;p okay so here is the history of this weird V guy, he made his 'appearance' by giving a letter on the floor next to our friends table, it was lunch so yeah =) she read the letter and the cuyak and buang ;p nice one =D but then next day, there were also a new letter, same thing, from V, so before she could burn it, i took the letter for safe keeping ;p then the next day was the start of him talking about some of us getting involve. then after a few more letters, he suddenly knew our name and by that also our boyfriends 0.o so a bit freaky but then we dont really care.

then it all suddenly went...well a bit over, a few more people got involved like me (duhh) jihah, iffah, kim karen, ayam, fitri, and some more of her friends as well as her bf~ and some more lh~*our class* then...well....the V guy suddenly went over by sending random letters for now and then cause well, we were just plain busybody but then i got to keep all the letters~ ;p well if i dont it'll be burnt before kna cuyak into millions of pieces~ anyway what else abt this V guy? oh yeah~ some of us think that his fake~ *mostly the boys* but then if he was fake, why bring all the trouble to go to her house givng her letters everyday and all that, but yeah~ some look like they're just playing a trick o something i dont know~ but all i can do now is wait. some of the gang went to investigate and they went all around the school just to know who he was~ or it may be a she right?? lesbian wow! whahahaha

anyway~ so yeah today's letter was stupider than his other letters~ we went to say dont hold other guys hands, dont hug then dont do that dont do this and bla bla bla~ and with a big i l y at the middle and on yeah with the new pangkat for everyone big yay! >=(
the name?? go to hell with him lh idk~ but we do know our pangkat

the fucking team captain- najihah and ME! like shitz! *poklen!*
assistant gay- F(symbol tree) *fitri* and 's' *ayam*
security- kim and karen
recruit- **** and ****
officer-iffah M and *****
front line-the rest and bf

so yeah~ a big yeah for we are in war with him! xDD and also he'll be stalking everyone of us so i hope you read this V who ever you are but we will not keep quite~ even if i am for the time being~ so yes V bring it on!!

with this post i will declare that V is a fucking gay cause he dosen't even have tho courage to even show his face infront of his crush?? like wth is that?? be a MAN or ur just a girl!!! for got sake u are such a coward~

ps i might feel stupid for this post

anyway, one more thing if this is just a fake, then it's a sick game to do cause you just make one of my friends , yes not my just so call friends, but actually my friend!! scared and annoyed and even mad which is so not her at all >=(

conclusion?
V IS a stalker which he thinks his not! V is GAY, V is a COWARD and further more we would like out privacy please~ including her if you know what i mean~ oh yeah you are so jobless for doing nothing than stalk people~ i pity you for once =p

memalui-ing at school~

okay~ let's start with getting to school~.....was i late today??....yes i was ;p *asking my self a question and answering my own question* okay soo after that getting a bit pissed cause someone was making me upset~ inda bth plg tu then got to class and after that went to see ayam<3 talk a bit then class started. half way there i was soooooooo and i mean REALLY weak~...i was tired without a reason~..okay maybe i do cause well im very busy for the pass few weeks, going home at 430 everyday sometimes cause gulingtangan starts as 2 until 4 and my sis got back from work around 430~ so memalui th ku tu, and also we have aerobic for this week just like last year and i had to meet up with my gorup for it, unfortunately we didnt made much progress~ sigh~ then going to the gulingtangan was not that easy....it was at the asrama puteri which is we have to walk pass the gym and then go to the first floor...=.= walking alone towards there also have a disadvantages cause well i dont like walking aloneee...i look like a loner =.= so usually ayam accompany me xD wait....so yeah~ April is the most tired month i've had, for now and we have the sport's day coming up and i'm running as well as a concert for the year 7!! how about that huh?? busy busy busy!!! Dx

okay other than that, so yeah~ busy~~when it was break time, i was to lazy to eat so i went to ayam's class and then remembered there was a meeting for pahlawan =.= so i went to the pahlawan's notice board but then met up with karen and she said there werent any...so i was like 0.o okay so i got back and noticed that feefah gone missing cause i didnt saw her at all today. so got to bilik gulingtangan with my baby qilah *btw ehemehemaniiiiiehemmmm* and thennn......oh yeah played a few songs~ then came feefaha nd i was like 'babeee!!!!!! pikir kau inda kulah 0.o' and then we played some songs and thenn well....we mostly ate and talk gossip and play music~

afternoon at at my class, a bit alone cause i didnt ask ayam to accompany me casue iw asnt him to spent time with his classmates *i feel like taking him away from his classmates so yeah* then came iffah and she aws my savior of the day <3<3<3 anyway after that......well i got to ayam's class after that *inda jua bth bh aku ah* and looked at my fb with my sis's lappy ;p hmmm.....after that at 130 i went to aerobic~ after that hmm oh yeah went to bilik gulingtangan with ayam again but there were no one there and found out there werent practiec to day so again went back to class spent time with qilah and feefah~ so yeah~ much of that was a waste of time and after that i went home slept until 7 maybe and woke up still wearing my pe attire~ then i realised i didnt send ayam home from school~ *inda plg time kul 3 dh ku realised but aku pikir ia blik dh* a big greatttt there -.-

no mood at all

well sorry for everything~ well sorry for talking to a guyy, well sorry for not saying byeee for once cause i was busy~ thanks....

okay~ yeah~ i've been in a bad mood since last night~ well thanks i am jealous but you dont have to be 'ooooo jeles th tu?' like...wth....im not in a good mood and i am MAD at that time thank you and you just act like i never got mad o anything. sighh............it's jsut not fair! you got to be all flirty and all and what do i get? i didnt even flirt and you already went to said that you dont like it =S not fair whhh...you said it's just friends but then i didnt do a thing and it's 100% just friends and then when you started it and i cant get mad at you about it???..........not fairrr T.T and here i am feeling...what? sad? depressed? sober?? *sma jua tu inda kn??* and you dont even know why.......sigh....just depress right now~....

hate this feelings

hmmm....im not in the mood...and well....

wait! before that, MONTHSARY!!! XD

okay continue~ im not in the mood actually...well it's because of my carelessness that i lost the 'thing' and because of that im not in the mood for anything. even chatting with my beloved *apa eh!* daddy, i was weird. i could guess that he realised it, and he actually ask me about it but i just said im fine~ hmmm...and i could guess his thinking about it right now~

jiwang

im not the type to say 'i love you with all my heart, i will never leave you and...' bla bla bla~ what? it's not me!!! im serious! it's like im being jiwang and....'sejak bila c datul jiwang!' *babe's tone* anyway~~ so yeah~ i never thought i would say it until well.....today =.= but yeah~~ i will said it once~ just becasue i said it i would start being jiwang! no way!!! that's men's work ;p heheheh..im bored ;p

worst friend ever

damn it....again! i forgot to greet amal yesterday!!! it was her birthday and last year i didnt even msg her at all!!! oh tutttttttttt. anyway, so i messaged her at 1 am last night saying im sorry and i was the worst friend ever and i didnt even want to give her any alabies. i know, it was so late that i just realised and maybe that was the thing that caught me awake all night. anyway, yeah i msg her with 2 or 3 msg long and i actually wanted to talk more with her. what? i miss her so much!!! i havent even contacted with her for almost 3 months or was is a year? 0.o soo....what else? im not good at remebering birthdays so dont get all upset when i greeted you guys late alright??? T.T damn it! i should've msg her 24hours before this!!!!! sigh....

the part where i suddenly inda telayan babe is also a worst friend ever list. like...okay, i was with daddy and then i didnt have time with her...so menyamal.......sighh....im trying the best i can whhhhhh.....cm th sngg.....gila emo ku eh........idi n syafiq ane away th jua...T.T nasib ada daddy.....rsa kn nangis arah ia ku eh.....................................................

pull up or shut up!

i have no mood for anything here. okay, firstly, i woke up time Mahgrib so maybe inda berkat aku tdur atu yath no mood trus. anyway, today was a bit dull, babe didnt stayback which leads to me not having the time to talk to her or gossip, well...i was actually planning morning i'll spent time with daddya dn then afternoon with babe....but since she didnt syaback i didnt even have time for her!!! so bad idea on doing that.

okay what else? im bored and i still have no mood so i'll sing okay? biar hujan inda ku kira!!! DX

chatting with daddy. hmmm.....he sound like he doesnt have the mood...the same like me.....sigh....damn it

oh yes, c lamak, we saw her tdi and i smile at her which made her like inda tntu rsa xD

repeating a word 3 times

today is seriously....boring and loongggggg. i know~ out PE playing with cg salnee will be continued next week on Monday, anyway, so yes, me abbe and bebek memalui as usual ==" okay~ when i got to school, i went to do my homework then went to talk with daddy for a while but then he have to do his homework so i just walked awy cause i didnt want to disturbe him, thought my maths homework actually was at home and i had to remade my homework like hell, but amazingly it was done in an hour but i didnt had it in....then after maths was....what ah?? english? no!....hmmm ==" oh yes...POA! i actually as usual....angan2 and i didnt pay any attention and getting a blank thig to do when we had an exercise. so i better work on that. anyway after that was...MIB which is studying about dalek2 7 puak brunei which is murut, kedayan, tutong, belait, brunei, bisaya and KEDAYAN which is me xD yes im kedayan but i dont speak kedayan. i know the meaning of it though x) okay after that was break and i gave some pictures to daddy, then it was english which is so boring that i actually ate some sweets to keep me awake, the way Ms Lim thought us is alright, but i cant stop being so sleepy...maybe i'll try sleeping early? nahh i'll be more sleepy 100% and my last class was IRK. which is alright but i kept angan2 about something else AGAIN!

so then waiting for feefah to finished class, me and babe went down looking at some boys playing at the futsal field, then suddenly lamak went to walk pass us and as usual, if we were talking before she was there, we'll stop after wards. i dont know why that is but it usually does. anyway, after that we went to out class cause rasyid went to call us just cause it was boring and on his way up was lamak AGAIN! so we heard her voice lh, *still not pacah and iw onder if girls really have this voice that would pacah, maybe she have too many hormons for guy's voice? no offence* anyway after that we then went to class and talked and talked and at the end the boys went to play at the padang bola bnr2 hahahaha. what else? .........oh yes, we spent out time lepak2 next to the gym, even meeting some teacher there like our scouts's teacher in charge sir Azlan. anyway after that i got home and well....it was pretty boring, my sis just got back from KK and she only gave me 1 gift~ (inda besyukur aku ah)

oaky, so after that i went to on my fb (after dinner) and that's pretty much it. it's a boring aday today and i dotn give w damn about lamak a bit. cause i actually had a grat shocked x) okay okay okay~ what else? oh yeahhh the repeating 3 words~ i actually have a habbit saying 'kn kn kn' or 'eh eh eh' also 'and and and' well it actually came from daddy as usual~ so yes~ hahaha addicted with it and it's a bit annoying but i cant stop it T.T okay im off....so sleepy dispite the fact it's 10 already~ okay cheers~ sweetdreams everyone, nyte2 x)

so bored at school until we took 100+ pictures!

well...today was great except that i woke up late and was only give 12 minutes to get everything ready for school!!!! so i was in a rush and i even said 'damn! shit shit shit!!' when i woke up. so when i got to school, i was busy doing my homework and actually didnt have much time with daddy. then during break, i ate my breakfast leftovers cause the canteen was seriously pack and i hate it. anyway, so after having a bio practical, then chemistry as well, while physics is.....alright. we mostly spent our time playing with the balance. so yes its was alright.

afternoon, i then went to spent it with my babe, i took out my sis lappy which i actually bring it to school and we looked for some internet. there werent any so i gave up on that and i went to look for the camera of the lappy. when i found it we took pictures as in me and babe and it was so much that it actually reached 100+!!! so yes....some of the pictures are me and qilah...okay, most of them are me and qilah. then when feefah came we took some pictures with her and after that when haziq came and rasyid i pulled haziq and we took some pictures as well....hmm..oh yes...at the end of the pictures where it was about to strike 4...we had this great idea of imitating lamak. i know how she usually smile so i make that smile and then took a picture of it. i was like, okayyy it looked a bit the same...but im not wearing my glasses, so yes..i took qilah;s glasses and take a picture with that smile again and actually it did look the same. in fact it did look the same like 100% and if ur not even looking properly, u might see it as her rather than me which i would seriously not take pictures like that. it's so not me.

okay, so yes, it;s very rude of us but we miss her hahaha.lamak anyway these are some of the pictures from today

not that cute huh?

smilyyy

hmmmmm

daddy! kna pjl begmbr ;p

LOVE

siapa nhhhh?? LAMAK!

skipping band again

im skipping bang again. well...i dont know why but sunday makes me lazy and well...im lazy x) anyway, im saying im skipping band and the actual thing i was going to talk about is about this...

if i didnt skip band, i wouldnt have talked or chatted to Hill Takayama which is a scouts member. when i got online, he suddenly text me with ahh this bubye muahhzz and all. so my first impression was he miss text me with his girlfreind. so i said 'ah?' hahaha. then i read it back it was actually for me ==" so i was....'asthhh' and he suddenly ask about scouts, which i cant help but layan cause im a bit addicted with scouts, and he even said about camping!! damn. anyway, after that we chated a few minutes then he gtg to work. so i was like...nasib...but the stupid thing is that, he texted me at the time where daddy was out to miri. so i thought, everytime we chatted, it have to be where daddy was out of country or something. next time, i'll go with daddy lh ke miri! hahahaha xD

oh yeah, this is his pic...took if from fb, thought i didnt save it, just took it form fb~

waseh!

esehhhh hahahaha, i love saying that word so much. but my title is not and error okay, waseh actually the child of eseh. daddy said eseh a few times which influenced to me and i said that word infront of 'A' (the girl yg kacau2 daddy)'s geng so they went to said waseh to penyeluru at me. so yes, they starting to be brave enought to do that. so they might as well brave enough to start a fight am i right? thought im not planning to start a fight but if it's unavoidable i would like to fight back, im not the type that wouldn't fight when i have to.

another thing that makes me thing that there is going to be a fight is that her bf and daddy. the two of this guys were alright, no static together and well when ever they met the smile. than, daddy told me that yesterday when they met, the bf looked at daddy so seriously. like he jsut wanted to hit daddy. menantang lh kn cri kelaie. so i was 'alright, this is going too far' 'A' is seriously trying to pick a fight with us.

so i was thinking, before this goes too far, why dont i try to talk with her...but then i know she would just give me that loveable-annoying face of her front row for me~ hahaha alright, so i just have to see how this goes cause i know now that their fighting back. well i never disturbe her anyway, just make her see my face already annoyed her. alright, so i managed to get all the points on the fight thing and i hope i could avoid it.....im not a coward cause im not. but i dont want to fight at school...msuk hep krg.

but if it really is unavoidable, then i might as well get really with 'A' cause i know daddy and that guy will have a fight. hope bkn kelaie pki tangan. just a conversation fight. anyway, what else? on yeahhh since they penyeluru me with waseh, everytime i said eseh i always said 'eh slh waseh!' hahaaha cause i love eseh but waseh remind me of the x)

your annoying-loveable face

hehehe~ im so sorry, but im seriously addicted to her face! her annoyed fave that makes me want to see her more and more!!! hahaha okay, im evil as usual. anyway, so yeah i saw her like so many times today. firstly, it was at the canteen and she went away just before i was buying my lunch. then, the second time was when i saw her dating with her boyfriend and me going to that area where we were waiting for cg salnee x) so yeah, after a while she also ran away leaving her boyfriend. so i guess she was annoyed of my face? =)

okay, so after playing some mixture of netball and basketball and free ball with cg salnee, babe, bebek and ismah, we were otw going home and she was actually sitting with her friends in our area. so yeah, when we were going home, they also went home, and she was behind me, i mean in front of me. i was actually in a rush and i love running so i ran pass her to get my bottle. then after that went to the canteen with babe. so yeah, her face was soooooooooo annoyed makes me want to see her more and more. when we went back to cg salnee, i saw her AGAIN with her boyfriend. so yeah, i just acted natural cause well...why would i get angry? i dont have any reason to be anymore. so when i was on my way pass her, she knocked her pencil case to the wall like she was so stressed up. i was actually 'ssk bnr jua anak ane kn aku x)' bt i just went like i used to. what? i love her annoying face but im not picking a fight with her anymore. all i did was only make her hear daddy's name from our conversation and she suddenly went so annoyed of us. so yeah, i dont give a damn about her stupidity or even kacau2 org, but i do give a damn about her where about cause well...what can i say? it's fun. but i actually hope in my heart, (deep deep deep deep deep deeeeeeeeeeeepppp inside my heart) that i dont want to just love making her annoyed, it's not she did something to me that i didnt want to forget, and im not that mean as i usually look like. hahaha. anyway, so yes~ i actually want to just us be friends. okay, not BESTFRIENDS! that'll be a nightmare, all i want it just stop everything. just enough, i lve my own life, and she live her own life and im will not disturbe her ever again. like hell im disturbing her right now..she was the one who was so annoyed of my face with no such reason at all. anyway, im bored hahahahaha okay, so yeahhh i love seeing her annoying face even until now. thought im trying not to cause i dont want to be in a fight with her, it's so childish and well not my liking. it's a bit of my style to fight back, but i guess it's not the reasonable thing to do to stop it. better fight fire with water than fight fire with fire~ x)




oh yes, this picture is not me and her. i just randomly pick it up and upload it x)

my dairy is not with me wh

i know i've been writing this s bit too much, but what? write on a dairy? it's with haziq whh. we're jsut so close and we sometimes....well usually bring home one of the other stuff e.g, his holding my stickers since last year~ and i usually bring home his pencil case. anyway, during school today, i as usual got to school early, then did my homework. after that, i went study. i started to cough a lot today at class and i was afraid i was being too annoying. during break, the cough started to worsen cause i didnt drink any water at all. suddenly i fent like i wanted to puke. i forze, but it was fine. when i cough again there it was again, so i walked out looking for haziq asking for water. mls ku wh ke canteen ah..ramai org! after that i drank and then i went back to class. i cough a few times again and i suddenly really wanted to puke so i walked out towards the toilet, ignoring haziq for once. got to the toilet, it suddenly dissapered. i was like, ngalih ku ehhhh.....but i cough a lot.

when it was lunch (i stayed back) i went down with haziq, and met Jamban. i was like, okay what ever but i was not in the mood for getting annoyed so i stayed where i was and it made her feeling annoyed. she suddenly started walking around her friend and finally she walked away. i was like......interesting =) so yeah~ my devil's side came out for today. so yeah after that i went for lunch with babe.

when it was time for going home, haziq left his songkok and hakim and rasyid told me to take it home. but why me??? their boys and i would look so weird holding a songkok! but i did~ so yeah. i knew it was his songkok cause it has his smell~ hahaha anyway, as we were going down to the canteen, that Girl was there and i had an idea. i told babe to go to the canteen just to make her jealous of haziq's songkok. hahaha sooooo childish huh? anyway, yeah~ babe said this out loud 'kenapa lh c haziq ketinggalan songkoknya atu kn?' and i said 'anth eh anak ah, pelupa th bnr' and they(she and her friends) all looked at us. i was like..wahahahahah im so evil x) so yeah. i had fun doing that and she didnt want to look at me on the face anymore. even when i was waiting for my brother to arrived and she was there, she went away. well~ now she knows how i feel if i see her. so yeah~ i hate her and i love making her suffer. man im so evil towards her x)