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the hell, i written a long post just now and when i published it it was gone...so i didnt even think twice and delete it just like that. so this will be a short one lh x) so my privious post that i just delete was about me being bored, im talking random, my studies, about the school..i mena class got burnet but didnt managed to, my 247 oay his! my early planning birthday party in march which is a bit private but i told it in this post~ how panat...hmm what else did i write? i mostly talk about random and well~ that's just it. i written a long post just now and it was suddenly gone..like half if it was gone just like that so u was a bit pissed and deleted it just like that. so yeah.....im bored and i hate stupid blog deleteing my haf post just then....it took me like....from 1045 until 1110 to do it and well~ it wasnt really long and i was proud of it so yeah~ big bummer but so? okay..im talking to my self AGAIN! so yes.....short today see ya cheers stay happy-appy XD nyte2 sweetdreams love ya n miss ya blog!! LOL im tired

so tired and sleepy

it's only 7 baby and im already sleepy damn it. anyway, yeah, im tired and sleepy because i just went to Muara Beach with my bro and my sis to just...well play around. we played at the play ground and then take some pictures a bit. like this one down here




anyway hahaha, yeah~ that my bro back there and my sis taking my bro's picture. anyway, so yeah~ some pictures at the sands are at my sis so yeah~ just waiting for her to upload it i guess. anyway when that was over, thought i spent most of my time at the water *my foot okay* so yeah. we went crab hunting and i went holding the pipe. hahaha i know~ i actually wanted to do my business and i was shouting to my brother that i want to go to the toilet.

so when i got home, i was like running to the toilet and then took a shower which made me sleepy until now. so yeah~ today was okay, i miss him thought and well.....hmmmmm ==" so tired n ngantuk bt my homework is not yet finished and well......i'll sleep late today i guess....oh! it's still 8 damn it....so ngantuk.

a boring rainy day

raining raining raining~ it's been almost a week and it's still raining. thought it stopped a few days but it started to rain again while lead to Brunei being cold like having a big air-conditioner. thought it's better than Brunei being hot, what? we complain Brunei being hot but now when it's cold, we complain as well. typical Bruneian right? anyway today is so boring. thought i got up around 10 cause well...im so lazy and i missed band on purpose wahahah (6) and i was actually woken up by a call from haziq cause i didnt reply his morning msg. okay, he planned to mc me but i answered it casue i didnt looked at who was calling. so when i woke up i just went to cook myself some breakfast and then went memalui cause the internet was gila.

i started to msg with some friends then got my self doing nothing after that. so i went to my room and sing some ALT songs as usual. well, after that there were a 'doa arwah' at my czn's house and when i got there, my cousin asked me of my result. i told them it got 3As and the rest are B. then she said "ohhh 3A 2B ko dpt" and i was like.....that's PSR......"inda..aku dpt 3A 5B" and my cousin suddenly looked at me with this weird look, like i was old or something. "form 3 ko kh?" she suddenly said to me and i answered "inda, form 4 tahun ane" "eeeee muda udah d merah ane!" and everyone suddenly comented on how i was a few years back when they usualy see me everyday. i was still around 6 or 5 that time and well what do you think? i was the target of kna nyanya at that time =="

hmmm what else.....oh yeah~ im menyamal right now at you know who~ hahahahaha and due to his low credit his having a hard time dealing with my menyamal. well~ spa suruh inda mau makan? ceramah dh ku bgi, inda jua mau2nya...so menyamal lg ku. biar ya x)

okay~ so yeah~ im having a boring day as usual and my homeworl is done like what? jsut doing research on DNA. sooo boring........

how i have been

so i've been sick for the past...well.....it's been last year. yeah, 27th December until now. thought my coughing ended a few days after the school opens but it came back a few days back because my brother was sick as well. then it went to my sister and now it reached back to me. so yeah, i've been coughing until my stomach hurts like hell. thought, i thought i had dugal cause when i cough with an empty stomach i feel like i wanted to puke, but since i ate breakfast back i was fine. and i had to drink a lot of water and the bitter medicine as well as the pills-which made my lidah panat and took out my taste buds for a while.

school was fine~ it was okay, it was great. hahaha, okay okay~ school was as normal as it could get. staying back until 4 with my babe and bebek. my lesson was alright thought, bio got me clueless, chemistry was fun thought we didnt managed to be successful with the lime water change to chalky. what else? Irk was alright, we just had out first lesson on 'Musuh-musuh Allah' then Bm was fun, kmi buyuk buat jawapan sedri where we were suppose to ask out partner. then...hmm oh yes physics, it was.........i dont know. very no comment. i dont know how the teacher is teaching us so im not sure how to comment it yet, but she is very padas sometimes. english was ms Lim again and people said she was boring ever since firm 2 and now i get it why, we're doing work every lesson where other sometimes just talk and play around with their teachers . thought its great to be chilling with teachers, but not studying is bad as well. so im okay with it a bit. pe was a bit boring, we're running all the time...just running and with my fever, i wasnt it great shape. mib was..i dont know, alright? i was in the toilet when my class was studying it funny right? and it took me like a few minutes in the toilet and they already finished. so i wasnt in the toilet that long, the teacher was fast. okay....what else....irk, bm, mib, pe, physics, bio, chemistry, oh yeah! POA-poa was also fine, it was theory so i'm a bit weak in that- what else? eng, maths D and A maths. okay maths, it's tcher mimi and it was alright. i currently loving A maths cause well...it's maths! like hell i dont love it. and haziq having it hard to deal with Amaths so im happily helping him in it. i love maths...hehe i love it x)

okay, speaking of school, jamban is really annoyed if us. well, annoyed of me. cause i met her almost everyday and she is surprisingly a pahlawan. so at the sport house meeting, she was so annoyed of me cause i kept walking next to her and waving at her friends *which was my friend as well and cousin* and i even played some games with one of them LOL so no surprise she suddenly got so annoyed that she jaling feefah and nina and also babe qilah. that made me wonder why she did that. if she's so annoyed of me, do it to me, dont do it to my friends. so yeah, today i didnt saw her thought and i miss seeing her annoyed face towards us. also! me and bebek made a bit of a plan, if we met her this time, i wave to her and bebek made eye contact. reason? we just want to see how her reaction is. if she started to talk to us in a nice way alhamdullilah, if in a rude way, we just ignore her and make her self look stupid.

alright, what else? hmmm.....i've become more rajin eseh! and everything is alright for me. i even got close with HHIKA back. well, for the past few days i feel weird with them and now im alright. i even had a laugh and it was alright. so yeah, my life is alright for the time being except someone started to kacau2 ayam again. thought it's not jamban, so im alright with it. what? im only jelaous of jamban n S so what the hell. i dont give a damn except just keep an eye on that person. x)

my dairy is not with me wh

i know i've been writing this s bit too much, but what? write on a dairy? it's with haziq whh. we're jsut so close and we sometimes....well usually bring home one of the other stuff e.g, his holding my stickers since last year~ and i usually bring home his pencil case. anyway, during school today, i as usual got to school early, then did my homework. after that, i went study. i started to cough a lot today at class and i was afraid i was being too annoying. during break, the cough started to worsen cause i didnt drink any water at all. suddenly i fent like i wanted to puke. i forze, but it was fine. when i cough again there it was again, so i walked out looking for haziq asking for water. mls ku wh ke canteen ah..ramai org! after that i drank and then i went back to class. i cough a few times again and i suddenly really wanted to puke so i walked out towards the toilet, ignoring haziq for once. got to the toilet, it suddenly dissapered. i was like, ngalih ku ehhhh.....but i cough a lot.

when it was lunch (i stayed back) i went down with haziq, and met Jamban. i was like, okay what ever but i was not in the mood for getting annoyed so i stayed where i was and it made her feeling annoyed. she suddenly started walking around her friend and finally she walked away. i was like......interesting =) so yeah~ my devil's side came out for today. so yeah after that i went for lunch with babe.

when it was time for going home, haziq left his songkok and hakim and rasyid told me to take it home. but why me??? their boys and i would look so weird holding a songkok! but i did~ so yeah. i knew it was his songkok cause it has his smell~ hahaha anyway, as we were going down to the canteen, that Girl was there and i had an idea. i told babe to go to the canteen just to make her jealous of haziq's songkok. hahaha sooooo childish huh? anyway, yeah~ babe said this out loud 'kenapa lh c haziq ketinggalan songkoknya atu kn?' and i said 'anth eh anak ah, pelupa th bnr' and they(she and her friends) all looked at us. i was like..wahahahahah im so evil x) so yeah. i had fun doing that and she didnt want to look at me on the face anymore. even when i was waiting for my brother to arrived and she was there, she went away. well~ now she knows how i feel if i see her. so yeah~ i hate her and i love making her suffer. man im so evil towards her x)

i love this day

i love this day~ i know~ blik2 ku ckp d mna2 ku ckp td. bt i seriously do love this day~ thought im not telling the reason but most of you guys knew about it. anyway~ so yeah~ today was okay~ alright, great~ super~ splendid, i love it! hahaha yeah i love today~ most of the reason was because im with him all day~....not in class but when ever it was break lunch and everything i was with him x) well cna jua. anyway when i was out of physics, thought it was a bit of hell and panic cause i was asked for the last lesson and i didnt revise. anyway, when i got out, i saw him and happily and almost ran towards him ^^, when i got there, he was joking of how long he've been waiting but he just got out of class as well~ we went home together~ alone for once and he wore his glasses. it was cute x) but he kept saying it was not and i love it when i always make him kambang~ hahahahaha....my life is all about him...sigh

tired

sooooooo tired. like hell, this morning i got band and woke up around 745. i got band to 8 something. then my teacher was trying to fixed my F note casue i dont know why but it went all wrong somehow. anyway, after that we were recorded by the CCA i dont know why but i heard it was for promoting brunei to the philipines. since i quit band for almost a year, i was falling behind so yeah, i faked everything. i faked me playing and just moved my mouth and fingers. it was funny and very tired. then we gossip2 for a bit and i went hom at 11.

then after lunch at 3, i went to the saloon with my sister for a pedicure and medicure and a foot scrub until 4. the foot scrub was hell, it hurts!!! but the medicure and pedicure was okay and very gali! x) then we went shopping buying some foods and everything. then we went to buy *ahem ahem* after that we went to the mum to buy some cake. we reached home at 5 and i went back to help my mom at the kitchen.

after that, after sembhyang Isyak, we went to mubarak seblh jamee! we were planning to buy the english book but i didnt know it was close on sunday n saturday!! but i did buy my other stuff for school and i was so tired for going around the store looking for my stuff. i got 14 thing to buy so imagine me holding 14 stuff, all the files fullscape and everything! but lucky my dad was there to hold it for me and the store keeper was also kind enough to help my dad put it in the counter.

i got home around 9 cause we also went to a few store on our way home and i actually got to use the computer at 10 something. i have to waith my my cloths to be ready cause i was washing them and then i wanted to msg someone at midnight. i was like.....urgh! im so tired! today is so much work! i wonder if i do this everyday i might faint for once.

drama bestfriends finally ended huh?

drama? yes! of course! 100% true! what type of drama? hell i dont know but i do know this. it's over. it's the end. anyway, this is how the drama started.

remember my last post about about me feeling weord with my gang HHIKA? well yeah. it's about them, and finally i've told them. so here how it went, i got to school early in the morning. well, i actually wanted to see babe qilah and haziq before anything happens so yeah, met babe and hugged her, that haziq and we talked. then came husna and i told her that i wanted to tell them something. then when ismah came and kaka wonz, i told them about it. i was crying~ yes i was, and they were like, bru sadar what they've done. but i was wrong. bt before that, as they were still in a daze of shock. i walked away towards haziq, giving him my glasses and then cried. yeah so? he was the only person that i was used to there so i cried at him lh! so yeah~ he tried to cheer me up but ismah husna and wani was standing next to me. trying to say something but couldn't. when ismah started to say something, i know what she was going to say, 'maksud mu, mun kmu inda buat aku c2 aku inda sadar lh ah?' and she said awu and i said 'time 2008 ko buat slh aku maafkn jua iss' thought my voice broke at the end and i cried again at haziq. (he was standing next to me) they told me to meet up at husna's class. i was like, why do i have to go to her class? this is about me? why am i going to their class to discuss about me? why dont they go to my class instead?

so as i got to husna's class, with haziq at my hand, still want him to be there. when they saw me coming, i stood outside, looking at haziq, didnt want to think about it or else i'll start crying again. then, when they got out, haziq ran out where i was looking at him, wanting him to be there with me! and i later found out there actually told them to go. i mumbled shit, and listened to what they had to say. they told me what they did was the right thing at that time, reporting me to the teachers was the right thing. that was what a bestfriend would do. yeah right! a bestfriend should advice their beatfriends! like hell they think that was the right thing! like hell they think i was alright with it, like hell i wouldnt get angry! so yeah...then they said if the even advice me they were afraid i would get angry at them until i didnt want to be friends with them again. well....that did happened, i had enough. they've hurt me too much, i've been crying for 3 night in a row thinking about this. so yeah, at the end, i left. i didnt want to head any of it, i had enough of heartbreaks for one life time for a friend that i love. thought i've lost them twice and they will lose me twice.

after that, i went towards haziq....okay shut up with me going towards him sja mun nangis ia mun nangis ia...but true! aku nangis ia ku aga wh! so yeah, i met him on my way towards class and then cried again. when break was over, it was irk and then we didnt studied yet cause the text books wasnt given yet. anyway, so yeah we were told to do our owh business so i made a letter for HHIA. and yeah, after school was over, i gave it to ismah. looking at her smiling cause i was glade it was over. i told them sorry and my last words was 'thnks for the memories datul =)'
so yeah, it was over for HHIA..but not khairah. she's different, she said sorry before i could cry, she said she wanted to apologies earlier that i thought, and she accepted me if i wanted to be just friends. so it was better that friends, she was my bestfriends. the only that stayed for me.

so yeah, it was over. HHIA was done for me. K reminds. thought they maybe still think im their bestfriends, but it's over for me. im done, i've been badly damaged by them. and i've been crying alot. it's been last year, i've been crying since last year, i might have lost my tear factory by now, and it did. im calm now, i dont cry anymore. when everyone tried to talk to me about them, i just smile and laugh like it wasnt a big deal. but it was so yeah, pity me~ but im fine. cause i know who is my real bestfriend already. and i'll cherish them =)

step up2

damn it! how many times have i seen the final dance!!! i'm still addicted to it!!! i've watched it like...so how many times! a few dozen the first time i saw it and now....my god, it's very addictive! so to the max!!!! in case you wanted to watch it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rX6Rku80gYo&feature=related

ok, so yeah, the music is awesome, the dance is wicked! thought you might not see me why it's so cool with all the poeple jumping and dancing and all. but it's cool to me Xp and i like it to the max. thoguht i havent seen the first one but i bet it's awesome as well...but from what i've heard the secont is way more far better!!!! and everyone is doing this for real! the've practiced like how many months to do that! and Mooses....the person who shouted "it's the new style" is the youngest from everyone! his 16! (in that movie) and he have sooooo great moves! thought i dont like his teeth and hair...but who am i tu judge? he have cool moves! anyway so yeahhh i love it!!! XD soo addicted right nowwwww LOL

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yeah~~....fine...thought he said sorry, and it was his fault, i was saying it was my fault and idi was saiyng it was my friend's fault. i was....bh spa th slh ne??? bt at the end i put it at rest and we chatted like always. anyway!!!! Dst was a bit crazy tonight. i cant msg anyone and well.....eveyone cant! so yeah....some went crazy and mental2 for awhile and idi was also mental2 sl inda dpt msg gfnya...akhirnya telipunnya. mna ja ia~ sejm th lg tu. kaya. bh okay what sould i say now....

im just here...apannn...okay im in MA4O btw and yeahhhhhhhhh seblh daddy XD bh out..inda panjang