stupidity.

i knew something was going to happen. and i knew it was my fault. so why the hell did i even started it.

yeah. i ended up crying my ass off last night. i even woke up with a swollen eye. haish. i know its stupid buy hey. what am i suppose to do? i miss him and he was pushing me away. i know its was for the best but still ==" i am so fucking sad. and i dont know what to do. i dont wanna see him as an ex. i want to see him as someone important, someone i trust. someone...i can depend on. is that love? is it stupid to think that? cause............what am i suppose to do? to not fall for you yet to still need you.