Honest Night

you know how you and your loved one always talk and talk and talk and talk and talk~ and theres always something you wanted to ask but your not sure if its true or not when they answer. so one night, i was talking on the internet with my love one and i told him,

'wanna have an honest night?'

'whats that?'

'i dunno, i was just being random =O but do you?'

'haha okay what is it?'

'aaa how about we both be honest tonight. and just for tonight, if you get what i mean'

'and then what?'

'umm...then we start with the questions?'

so yeah. that night i actually knew a lot after that and like wise he also knew about it too. thought we mostly asked about stupid stuff, you guys dont really have to know. so we havent played that game for a while until tonight. i didnt knew if he actually wanted to play it cause well...we werent together anymore =o

so we played, i was really bored so i asked anything that was in my head. it was funny cause it was a really detailed answer. and then, somewhere in that conversation we managed to let our feelings out, yet again. so being brothers and sisters was a good idea yet a very bad idea. well, not going to talk about that. but it did worked. we both managed to say what we felt about each other and well, it wasnt like it was awkward. it was good to finally let it all out.

thus, having an honest night was a good idea for me and him x)

morning?

morning is a greeting. its valid from the time you wake in the morning until 1200. anyway, i was just being funny.

gooood morning to you all, its 11 10am right now, (ignore the time on the post, cause its crazy, hence not true) and well, what can i say, i was NOT suppose to wake up this early. i slept at 340am last night and was suppose to wake up latter than this. anyway, how i woke up? its cause my mom woke me up just to tell me to have breakfast. so i wondered, while i was still under my blanky, why would my mom wake me up just for breakfast...the past couple of days, i was waking at at 11 or 12 and had breakfast on my own. anyway, so it turns out she wanted me to cook the rice --, so yeah.

okay so i woke up pretty pissed. cause i'm not really a morning person. but i am a night person xD gehehe.

sunglasses

finally have my own sunglasses. no degree like my sis but hey, at least i have one ;p sadly enough, it wasnt my kind of liking. my sis was like 'no that not good' 'ugly' 'it look like a guy's style' 'nooooo' and yeah..you get the picture. T.T so i was heartbroken...and she was the one who picked it. and well. maybe i was hyper with it and took pictures with it. but it didnt really match with my heart =/

what i really want it thisss.....

=O

uploading 173 pictures on facebook.

yup, you see it right. i am currently uploading 173 pictures to facebook. its about my holiday when i was in Pontianak. the journey actually took 2 days non-stop driving too. everyone actually slept in the bus the whole night o.o and i was lucky enough to have 2 seats all for my own so my sleep was a lot better than everyone else. hahaha. okay so i might have slept the whole journey from Brunei to Pontianak but i did had a major cram at the back when i got to the hotel. xD

the Hotel was called...Kini Hotel and you know what the first thing i did? i asked about the internet connection. they first told me the password was 'hotelkini88' and then it didnt work. so i went down to ask the reception, they told me it was "HOTELKINI88" i'm like..okay --" but it still didnt work. so the next day, i asked again and they gave ne still a wrong password. so that evening, i asked the lobby's wireless password and FINALLY i got internet. but it didnt actually reached my room on the fifth floor --" great. so the next morning, i had to ask YET AGAIN the wireless for the garden. so yeah. after that it was all internet life with me when i reached the hotel.

i didnt really wanna do much there, actually, i was just a tail following my paresnts around and tool some pictures. here are some of em.

this was actually on the way home and dad was helping the owner cook murtabak. yum :9

we were waiting for the other bus people to come so we went ahead and look around the area.

nice right? =)

mom, me dad and my angah madih.

at the immigration pontianak.

xperia Neo V or play?

so i'm really, and REALLY in love with this phone. i mean, hey, my old phone is 3 years now and this phone is a really big step up. anyway, so if i get 6 O's for o'lvl i'll get this phone. or maybe, this one down here ;p

so tell me, which phone is more awesome!??? =O

Cbox problem!

oh no! i actually deleted my hotmail on THIS email. i really wonder how i managed to still have my blog =O anyway. had to make a new cbox. please take note people =)

oh and this is to me, WHY THE HELL DID I DELETE MY OWN EMAIL!!! now i have to make a new cbox.

IDI SYAFIQ!

noww, here is two of my fav bestfriends ;p SYAFIQ (left) and IDI (middle) been friends with then since 2008. i was 13. i was young. i had friends, i keep em. x) and i never regretted it. anyway, they supported me. with almost EVERYTHING. some they were actually mad with my decision, well hey, i was stupid. but they didnt actually got that mad at me ;p right guys?? ;p hahahah

the three of us go wayyy back. well, you know how long ;p and we all met at this one school i always pass everyday. me and IDI btw. its Sekolah Ugama Salambigar (pagi) (couldnt find the pic T.T)

so i went to school there, (actually i moved) cause i got to Maktab sains. so had to attend a morning session for Ugama school. Idi and Syafiq attended it cause they were in SAMSAB (right?) and form 1 (yes we were still using from 1 at that time) was at the afternoon, just like mine. so if it werent for that, we would have never met. xp

so after we graduated ugama (eseh) we all went separate schools (of course i was still in MS) syafiq was still at SAMSAB and idi moved to PGGMB. so all 3 of us got separated. SAD!

after that, we didnt talk much with each other ='( me and idi chatted sometimes, he even called when his bored hahaha! i video called with syafiq too sometimes in the middle of that o.o but it was mostly a bit of a lost contact.

then 2011 was O'lvl and i went to the same tuition class with idi. syafiq had a twitter (which i'm so update soooo much there) so i was close back with them. x3 YAY!!! and nowww after the o'lvl is over. and since my laptop's camera is fixed. me syafiq and idi had been oovoo-ing for almost all every night. thought i always went to sleep early xp hhahaha.

oh this? we were f-in bored xp

talking about......something? o.o hahaha

waiting for idi, he was....away? and syafiq feel asleep.

this? i dont really know. syafiq was so bored that he was wearing a tudongg. idi was lagg. me? i'm laughing my way.

My Bestfriend/Bro/Ex

BEFORE you think 'wtf? ur ex is your bestfriend??' see my point first!

honestly, i dont have one. so fuck off. kidding. hahaha!. okay, so maybe your thinking, 'ex can never be your bestfriend. especially if it was a serious relationship' dont kid with me. i know i know. its almost impossible. but he was my bestfriend and bro before my boyfriend. and i never actually treated him like a real boyfriend. okay, so he might be the first person i think about in the morning and last person before i sleep. but hey, thats in love. anyway, after the break up, we lost contact for.....i dunno. maybe a long time? or was it just a week? =P hahaha. okay, but we did stop talking and rarely contacted after that. and honestly, we were moving on, slowly, but we are. (you even read my post, you should know) anyway so slowly, the feeling was gone but out friendship was still intact. for me, he was still my bestfriend and my bro, and we didnt actually broke up with a war or world war III.

so after that, we talked again. we spent time, a few times..........--"

okay, so maybe i'm forgetting what i'm actually suppose to talk about. let me re-explain why he can still be my bestfriend and bro.

let me just say that, so what his my ex. his been my bro and bestfriend since the start and why stop there? just cause we broke up, our friendship isnt shattered. so yes, his my ex. but his my bro and bestfriend and his still important! so fuck off if you think its absolutely absurd. cause for me, its NOT.

and now, even after breaking up, we stil update each other. we talk every night like i talk with my other bestfriends, we went to watch a movie like my other bestfriends.

if i'm not making any logic to you people, well, welcome to my world. >;)

My Love Life

my love life. hmm....where should is start? =)

16 months. thats how long it was when i was my relationship with my bro, bestfriend and the most important person in my life. dont get me wrong, his still important, and his still my bestfriend and bro. i'll talk about the bestfriend part later x)

anyway, so the relationship was great. not going to talk about us breaking up. and the drama after that cause it was...hectic. and very painful o.o soo now i'm single again. for.........9 months. exactly --" (damn it. why did i checked? ) hahaha. okay, so being single is...alright. feel like i can look at guys again. but then it also freak me out when they start to look back at me oo' so maybe i'm not used to it yet.

there are actually a few guys i'm interested in xp but didnt actually managed to start the 'talk' with them. yknow...get to know them or tell them that you actually exist? =O so anyway, since i've been in a serious relationship for 16 months, and been a love doctor/ therapist for almost 3 years, i might have know a bit or two on how to see what people think of you. or maybe i'm just bluffing myself who knows? ;p

i know the guy i'm interested in right now is so not going to talk to me. cause 1 main reason is that my bro scared him off. there was some complication at that time --, hhahaha. and he wasnt really my ideal guy...though he was good looking which was the down part. anyway, moving on...

i did said a FEW right? so second guy i'm interested in is well, maybe a bit or a few months younger than me. hey, no wrong in that, i'm no cougar. (is that the right word? cause i was using sp correction xD ) anyway, he does know i exist. but i know his not interested, cause well.....he never talk to me o.o or even look at me. or even notice me when i walk pass him. so no go with him.

3rd guy, well. his not attractive like the first 2. but he know i exist and he always says 'hi' and wave when i walk pass him. that good right? sad thing is, his just being FRIENDLY. --"

what to do when your not on the market too long. you lost your touch. so have to live with that. and well, i still have my bestfriends <3

welcome back?

i really forgot my blog since...i had twitter? hahahah. so hows it been for me? well, its been awful. NOT. oaky so i might not be with him again but i am happy =)

anyway what was i going to say? oh my life is normal simple. and i have my friends at my back.



oh and i am a REALLY vain person. my hair's shorter and well.... straighten it again. xD