Cbox problem!

oh no! i actually deleted my hotmail on THIS email. i really wonder how i managed to still have my blog =O anyway. had to make a new cbox. please take note people =)

oh and this is to me, WHY THE HELL DID I DELETE MY OWN EMAIL!!! now i have to make a new cbox.

IDI SYAFIQ!

noww, here is two of my fav bestfriends ;p SYAFIQ (left) and IDI (middle) been friends with then since 2008. i was 13. i was young. i had friends, i keep em. x) and i never regretted it. anyway, they supported me. with almost EVERYTHING. some they were actually mad with my decision, well hey, i was stupid. but they didnt actually got that mad at me ;p right guys?? ;p hahahah

the three of us go wayyy back. well, you know how long ;p and we all met at this one school i always pass everyday. me and IDI btw. its Sekolah Ugama Salambigar (pagi) (couldnt find the pic T.T)

so i went to school there, (actually i moved) cause i got to Maktab sains. so had to attend a morning session for Ugama school. Idi and Syafiq attended it cause they were in SAMSAB (right?) and form 1 (yes we were still using from 1 at that time) was at the afternoon, just like mine. so if it werent for that, we would have never met. xp

so after we graduated ugama (eseh) we all went separate schools (of course i was still in MS) syafiq was still at SAMSAB and idi moved to PGGMB. so all 3 of us got separated. SAD!

after that, we didnt talk much with each other ='( me and idi chatted sometimes, he even called when his bored hahaha! i video called with syafiq too sometimes in the middle of that o.o but it was mostly a bit of a lost contact.

then 2011 was O'lvl and i went to the same tuition class with idi. syafiq had a twitter (which i'm so update soooo much there) so i was close back with them. x3 YAY!!! and nowww after the o'lvl is over. and since my laptop's camera is fixed. me syafiq and idi had been oovoo-ing for almost all every night. thought i always went to sleep early xp hhahaha.

oh this? we were f-in bored xp

talking about......something? o.o hahaha

waiting for idi, he was....away? and syafiq feel asleep.

this? i dont really know. syafiq was so bored that he was wearing a tudongg. idi was lagg. me? i'm laughing my way.

My Bestfriend/Bro/Ex

BEFORE you think 'wtf? ur ex is your bestfriend??' see my point first!

honestly, i dont have one. so fuck off. kidding. hahaha!. okay, so maybe your thinking, 'ex can never be your bestfriend. especially if it was a serious relationship' dont kid with me. i know i know. its almost impossible. but he was my bestfriend and bro before my boyfriend. and i never actually treated him like a real boyfriend. okay, so he might be the first person i think about in the morning and last person before i sleep. but hey, thats in love. anyway, after the break up, we lost contact for.....i dunno. maybe a long time? or was it just a week? =P hahaha. okay, but we did stop talking and rarely contacted after that. and honestly, we were moving on, slowly, but we are. (you even read my post, you should know) anyway so slowly, the feeling was gone but out friendship was still intact. for me, he was still my bestfriend and my bro, and we didnt actually broke up with a war or world war III.

so after that, we talked again. we spent time, a few times..........--"

okay, so maybe i'm forgetting what i'm actually suppose to talk about. let me re-explain why he can still be my bestfriend and bro.

let me just say that, so what his my ex. his been my bro and bestfriend since the start and why stop there? just cause we broke up, our friendship isnt shattered. so yes, his my ex. but his my bro and bestfriend and his still important! so fuck off if you think its absolutely absurd. cause for me, its NOT.

and now, even after breaking up, we stil update each other. we talk every night like i talk with my other bestfriends, we went to watch a movie like my other bestfriends.

if i'm not making any logic to you people, well, welcome to my world. >;)

My Love Life

my love life. hmm....where should is start? =)

16 months. thats how long it was when i was my relationship with my bro, bestfriend and the most important person in my life. dont get me wrong, his still important, and his still my bestfriend and bro. i'll talk about the bestfriend part later x)

anyway, so the relationship was great. not going to talk about us breaking up. and the drama after that cause it was...hectic. and very painful o.o soo now i'm single again. for.........9 months. exactly --" (damn it. why did i checked? ) hahaha. okay, so being single is...alright. feel like i can look at guys again. but then it also freak me out when they start to look back at me oo' so maybe i'm not used to it yet.

there are actually a few guys i'm interested in xp but didnt actually managed to start the 'talk' with them. yknow...get to know them or tell them that you actually exist? =O so anyway, since i've been in a serious relationship for 16 months, and been a love doctor/ therapist for almost 3 years, i might have know a bit or two on how to see what people think of you. or maybe i'm just bluffing myself who knows? ;p

i know the guy i'm interested in right now is so not going to talk to me. cause 1 main reason is that my bro scared him off. there was some complication at that time --, hhahaha. and he wasnt really my ideal guy...though he was good looking which was the down part. anyway, moving on...

i did said a FEW right? so second guy i'm interested in is well, maybe a bit or a few months younger than me. hey, no wrong in that, i'm no cougar. (is that the right word? cause i was using sp correction xD ) anyway, he does know i exist. but i know his not interested, cause well.....he never talk to me o.o or even look at me. or even notice me when i walk pass him. so no go with him.

3rd guy, well. his not attractive like the first 2. but he know i exist and he always says 'hi' and wave when i walk pass him. that good right? sad thing is, his just being FRIENDLY. --"

what to do when your not on the market too long. you lost your touch. so have to live with that. and well, i still have my bestfriends <3

welcome back?

i really forgot my blog since...i had twitter? hahahah. so hows it been for me? well, its been awful. NOT. oaky so i might not be with him again but i am happy =)

anyway what was i going to say? oh my life is normal simple. and i have my friends at my back.



oh and i am a REALLY vain person. my hair's shorter and well.... straighten it again. xD

is the fact that I love you

Love, like a tree,
sends its roots down deep
so when the storms of life abound
and the winds of adversity blow,
it shakes and bends
and goes with the flowbut doesn't break or fall.

And during times of drought
it drives its roots down deeper
so whatever comes and goes—
summer, winter, spring, or fall,
the good times and the bad—
it stands the test of all.

– Dick Innes

when i dont message you,
Doesn't mean,
i forgot about you,
im just giving you time,
to miss me.

Without you my days are
Moanday,
Tearsday,
Wasteday,
Thirstday,
Fightday,
Shatterday,
Sadday.




love is the strongest of all gift,
love is the purpose of our life,
to love and be loved,
makes our life wonderful!
I LOVE YOU

all for you <3 haziq syukri =)

Blame PhotoScape for getting me addictive.

hayyyy, nice eh?? or not cause well....i'm just starting~ ;p this is not photoshop but its photoscape. i know not fun~ but it is very addictive otherthan photoshop which i think im not sure how am i going to get it. cant download it thats for sure.

i got this yesterday and well, it's very addictive, this is the first picture i made. then i went on with ayam's and then the both of us with 247 xp hehehe so yeah. i'm working on a picture of A.D.A later abd i've done MB3C and Troop 1017 already. not goanna upoad that cause i didnt want people to get annoyed xp

so enjoy~~

ayam <3

247 <3

at school doing nothing.

alright fine~ i know i haven't update my blog alright?? i'm a bit lazy and busy about it and what do i care? it's not that people read my blog anyway~ i think o.o well i dont really know who reads them so who cares. anyway my last post was about my.....boyfriend right?? hahaha. well i dont think he read my blog anymore cause i dont think he really remembers it. anyway i'll be saying a lot if anyway alright?? ;p okay okay okay, here how my life went.

it's august right now and it's almost Ramadhan as in fasting month. not long it'll be hari raya =DD anyway feefah's birthday is coming up this month and i wonder what am i going to give her o.o feefah if you happen to read this, act as if i know another feefah in this world. xD and ayam's birthday is coming up next month. i wonder what am i going to give him! o.o i was planing to give him a watch but then i was afraid he'll buy a new watch in no time. so finally i asked my sis, she said to buy him a T-shirt. and here is karen Lee. hay karen =) anyway, i didnt buy him a T-shirt cause i dont really know his size, so finally my sis told me to buy him a cap. it was simple and well......VERY simple. but i guess his the simple type cause he really do like simple things. anyway after that so yeah, i got hims present, but i still dont have one for feefah other that *tuutt* and ayam's birthday is durning the 4th term holiday! hari raya g tu eh bdaynya ah -.- so i dont really know how in the world am i going to give him the present. it'll be either i give him before his birthday where i'll need to begg him to the ground so he wouldnt open the presernt early or give him late which is a few weeks late D= which one is better? o.o

okay, stop a bit about him and let me talk about my life. thought his been in my life ever since last year so i dont really know how to my life be without him anymore -.- okay maybe i do....and it's lonely. i thought i want to stop talking about him? anyway!!! my life....okay...everything has been a bit okay. other than the fact that im getting lazy to hand in my homework and well...my teacher ask my parents number. if i dont hand in by next week saturday, well i'll be dead, my mom would band me from computer for the whole year!!! mummy-.- then my school is having test fever where it's test week. not to mention that we have more projects for the end of year exam which is on this november. gah!! and not to mention again that i have band! Dx band is soooo **tuut* man....we have this exam to get the grand 1 and then a concert for the cca as well as a Road Show to all the school around brunei. mann..and i already lost my tune -.- haiyaa...this is not easy. soo.......i'm not that organized with my life yet.....

ouch -.- i have this...well bibir ku melatup yath sakit. it's been 2 days and man it hurts. ayam got it more bigger than id o but he got it somewhere abit inside his mouth where it would hurt him when he talks/ me unfortunately, it'c located somewhere at my left lips but...well you could see it if i pout. it's not that big YET, but it already hurt like hell =( what else??

my friends?? aaaa their doing great, thanks for asking. yeah right tul, now your talking to yourself. anyway, so qilah is doing fine, and feefah also. idi and syafiq too, though its been a while i hanvent met them, last time was saturday 24th july. then..hmm.....iffah been very crazy as usual ;p what?? she make me crazy most of the time when im not with ayam =( and today ayam balik awal and aku nda smpt salam ia =((( rindu ku eh...nda g bth kmi jumpa tu..as usual. again. okay2...hmm.....HHIKA are great, i met them when ever i met qilah at 4s.

oh yes....'adi ku' atu..haiyaa..ngacau tia lagi. bt okay lh, i could hold my anger from her, im not that type to show it so long. and not the type to hate someone sooooooo much for so long. then...what?...let me thing. i'm gussing adi ku ssk aku jua but i dont really care. as usual, i dont really care if someone hates me, it s a part of my life ever since i was in primary school. and i tell ya, that was stupid. people hated me with no such reason at all o.o and im glad im just to bold to know about it.

how am i? i'm fine. i have a thick head for such reason. my cousin once hit me on the face with a ball that he kick, and his one of the school football player at that time too. and well, most of the reason why i saind my head was thick. yesterday, as i was spending a bit time with ayam, he was lying on my lap as usual casue him being manja and me being tukang layan is fun. so as he did that, we were talking and i was smiling. i didnt really remember what was talking about...then so suddenly something hit my head and i look up *since i was looking down to look at ayam in my lap* and i saw a ball bounce away from me. ayam was already away from my lap by that time and i figured that the ball hit my head as someone from ayam's team kicked it. the funny thing was, i was laughing my ass off. thought i was holding my head at where the ball collided with my head, but still, i was laughing. i think i got the hysteria again. then i remembered that ayam was there too and well, it wasnt easy but managed to tell him not to go mountain volcano explosion cause i was alright. i pulled him abit to show him i was alright again and then he stood up. he went to look for the ball and someone from the boys said he was sorry. well i guess he kicked the ball. but by the time ayam asked for the ball, i know he wasnt going to explode cause if he does, he would have done it 5 seconds ago. so he talked about to his friends, looking like he was going to get mad and mental. he hit the ball to the ground and let it bounce but at the end he said 'adang th main ehh, bahaya kamu ane. inda kamu liat tu ia ketawa ah??'as he pointed his finger at me, who is still having ym hysteria. he went to pat my head after that. so yaeh =DDD

okay i guess that beats me not updating eh? =) i know it's been a while and i know it s going to be another while for me to update again but i'll try my best. payah bh kn bth2 menulis ane....biasanya facebook ja ku ada ane. so if any of you do read this and you dont know me? look for my facebook. im sure you could find it~ if not 'Datul Kaede' alrightzzz im not poklen. on the other hand, forget what you just read and let me feel like you dont read my blog =D fair enough.

see ya~

the person i love =D

yes~ i know~ something that is worth reading is not the person i love who you people dont know off~ what do i care? it's my blog ;p

the person i love come by the name Mohammad Haziq Syukri Bin Sukor, loves the color Orange and is crazy with the game warcraft DOTA. i for once, played Dota far before he even know me, but i suck at it and just played it once~ so what do i care? i dont know how to play anymore. anyway~ no going to complain about Dota here knowing he loves it and afraid he would read this~ hoping he would though. anyway~ i feel like i've told this story a hundredth times already. being a playboy and a so call Handsome and Hot to the core, i dont really get people.

i heard of this infamous playboy ever since 2007. then saw him with one of my friend, he seem nice to me but i didnt give a damn. 2008, heard so much rumors about him which made me hate him with no such reason~ hahaha, then 2009. he was in the same class with me. so the first thing i wanted to do is ignore him and dont even want to talk with him. but unfortunately i sat next to him -.- finally, after 2 months of never talking....we talk. i found out he was a down to earth guy, sweet and caring all over. then i heard people call him hot and handsome....well i thought he was normal. no offense, im not talking big cause i dont think i am, but really...his not that hensem or even hot as people call him. anyway so yeah, we got too close and well.....i started to have a crush. not going to tell the whole story but then he had a crush on me too and with a lot of problems we finally got together after a year of knowing each other.

i never get bored with him~ i wonder why would i be since i love him so much~ i dont know why but every time i'm with him, my worried would just go away~ well, after i tell him about it. i hate lying to him and he know how to read my face, i seriously hate keeping something from him and with that he know all about my life. even he read my private diary~ and my private diary cant even stop talking about him~ i need a life sometimes but i cant do that, not now when i'm still a love addict. ;p feeling self cautious for the people who would read this, i should keep things in mind. but yeah~ his my life for now~ i know i'm still younggg, he might not be my husband in the future, but so what?? i dont even know who is my husband~ what if he really was my husband?? then i would ne happy of course, and if he wasnt, then fine. i'm not going to go get mad at the universe because of that. if i love him now, then i would love my husband more.

alright, so knowing him a year get me to know a bit about him, for one thing, his a pretty calm guy, well....if you get on his nerves, i couldn't stop him. his a good guy, who tried to help everyone...that he know~ duh. very smart other than maths which i got to beat him at all the time =3 *smug* a playful guy, never stop with the jokes and pocking me on the ribs *i'm very tickle-ish* very belurus until i just pinch his cheeks red. oh yes....slim =3

okay, now i forgot where i'm going with this..... oh yes! so, that's just how he is. calm and funny. and one thing i dont really expect from him is that his a very honest guy. from what i heard of a playboy, his very honest, and after knowing him that long, his not even a playboy at all. he just tend to get a lot of fans and being friendly isnt a good thing for a guy like him ;p i just wanna talk about him actually *smug* so if you find this annoying, then stop reading ;p

we became best friends before getting together, and he was just like my brother as much as he is as my.......lover. still getting that hard on my mind hahah. so yes, his my life. his my best friend, my brother and my boyfriend....his too important for me to lose =)

have i forgot to mention that he love playing the guitar?
^^,

pink perfume adidas

that is random actually =) so ignore that~ oh how i miss my blog~ *not really* anyway~ let me put it up to date alright??

firstly~ it's already July~ and tomorrow monthsary <3 luckily i have top-up my mobile looking as it had it's annual license today -.- $-25 this morning~ great but yeah....now it's $5 with a bonus of $6.95 hahahaha. anyway so yes~ i will be able to msg him tonight =) anywayy....school like is pretty alright if i could say~ i could never managed to go home late since i hate being jobless at home so i'll go home at somewhere 3 to 4. 2 being the earliest i could managed to force my self ;p and what am i doing?? i dont really know o.o most of the times i tried to busy myself by reading a thick book *a bit of a bookworm* and since i'm running out of books...i need to borrow them from the library o.o and if i dont really have a book, i'll busy myself with something like walking endlessly with no reason....well most of the time i would kill my time with daddy~ but his been pretty busy so yeah =)

hmm.......what else? oh yes i'm trying my best to do my homework since for once i'm losing my concentration on school work -.- so i hate to fall behind...especially when daddy is always smarter than me.....except maths =D...

oh yeahh...i've tried to make a design for well....i dont really know o.o but i made a design *abstract* for daddy for that one day he was absent and it ended up us not seeing for 4 days -.- and i was okay with it..but now i forgot how it looks like~ anyway......i'm actually bored~ daddy dont have kredit baaaa...that's y

i've been very sentimental for the pass few days =) well~ i've been happy most of it.......i think. okay i admit, i've been pretty sober for the pass few days which made me so sentimental~ is that a bad thing?? well i dont really care about it~ all i care is that i love him all to much =D apann....i dont want to talk about him~

yes, i'm making a whole lot of paragraphs with random things to write on

books! i've read the dontinuation of vampire academy~ aka the 4th book~ blood promise. it was oh so cool!!!!! and i hate it when Dimitri is a strigoi.....i know~ you dont konw about it...bt still and the ending is like wth!!!! his still aliveeeeeee nooooo -.- and i know the next book, Rose will be going with Lissa oh no! =S and also i've read the continuation of the Demonata~ i got the 1st until the 3rd, then i refuse to read the 4th one since i thought i wasnt relevent....then when i finally had the feeling to buy it, it wasnt on store....but i found the 9th book....so i just bought it, and founf out everything was connected with all the book eversince from the 1st! damn it -.- and i skipped 6 book as well. i wanted to read about Bec though....

my cousin! there were living with us for 2 night last month? week?? and all are from my father's side, which made me unavailable on internet for 2 whole days -.- anyway so most of my cousin are asking too much from me...i was trying to be hostile but at the end i became antisocial with my sis -.- too tired to talk with everyone i know and ask far too many question about my personal life....especially when they ask me about my boyfriend....which i told them i dont have one -.- no offense daddy~ i just dont want my cousin to poke their nose in my life

listening to my old songs-being an All time low freak, i have not been listening to their songs for a whole 2 months!!! now im listening to it again and it feel so relaxing =) and now it changed to the song that was given during May...... i dont really like listening to it...but somehow i cant force my self to delete it....even daddy was wondering why i kept it....in truth i dont really want to tell him =) i'm sorry love

i want time

alright i'll stop here and make a new post~ hopefully it's about something that meant to be told ahahahah