can i scream now?

to my fellow cousins who have known about this, dont worry~ im just releasing stress =)


so can i scream now??? the past 2 weeks, i had a fight, not that big of a deal okay? then after that, when we were ok~ my friend....a very dear and close friend of mine had a fight with their partner, so i got to advise them a bit, that happen for like.....a week or so~ and it's actually up until now. then, just as that was over, then my new problem came....a bit of a nightmare actually~ a real one if i could think. im not telling what happen but i guess it's just like that, it's like you cant change it if you just let it be, we have to do something to let it change, yeah, you dont get it, but this is freakin killing me and also making me sad, what is it trying to tell? what does it mean? why now? why make me wonder? too much questions, little time to answer......

yeah, i know you dont get me at all =')

V go to hell

hayyyyy apannn yeahhh some of my friends have heard abt this V guy and also well most of the class ;p okay so here is the history of this weird V guy, he made his 'appearance' by giving a letter on the floor next to our friends table, it was lunch so yeah =) she read the letter and the cuyak and buang ;p nice one =D but then next day, there were also a new letter, same thing, from V, so before she could burn it, i took the letter for safe keeping ;p then the next day was the start of him talking about some of us getting involve. then after a few more letters, he suddenly knew our name and by that also our boyfriends 0.o so a bit freaky but then we dont really care.

then it all suddenly went...well a bit over, a few more people got involved like me (duhh) jihah, iffah, kim karen, ayam, fitri, and some more of her friends as well as her bf~ and some more lh~*our class* then...well....the V guy suddenly went over by sending random letters for now and then cause well, we were just plain busybody but then i got to keep all the letters~ ;p well if i dont it'll be burnt before kna cuyak into millions of pieces~ anyway what else abt this V guy? oh yeah~ some of us think that his fake~ *mostly the boys* but then if he was fake, why bring all the trouble to go to her house givng her letters everyday and all that, but yeah~ some look like they're just playing a trick o something i dont know~ but all i can do now is wait. some of the gang went to investigate and they went all around the school just to know who he was~ or it may be a she right?? lesbian wow! whahahaha

anyway~ so yeah today's letter was stupider than his other letters~ we went to say dont hold other guys hands, dont hug then dont do that dont do this and bla bla bla~ and with a big i l y at the middle and on yeah with the new pangkat for everyone big yay! >=(
the name?? go to hell with him lh idk~ but we do know our pangkat

the fucking team captain- najihah and ME! like shitz! *poklen!*
assistant gay- F(symbol tree) *fitri* and 's' *ayam*
security- kim and karen
recruit- **** and ****
officer-iffah M and *****
front line-the rest and bf

so yeah~ a big yeah for we are in war with him! xDD and also he'll be stalking everyone of us so i hope you read this V who ever you are but we will not keep quite~ even if i am for the time being~ so yes V bring it on!!

with this post i will declare that V is a fucking gay cause he dosen't even have tho courage to even show his face infront of his crush?? like wth is that?? be a MAN or ur just a girl!!! for got sake u are such a coward~

ps i might feel stupid for this post

anyway, one more thing if this is just a fake, then it's a sick game to do cause you just make one of my friends , yes not my just so call friends, but actually my friend!! scared and annoyed and even mad which is so not her at all >=(

conclusion?
V IS a stalker which he thinks his not! V is GAY, V is a COWARD and further more we would like out privacy please~ including her if you know what i mean~ oh yeah you are so jobless for doing nothing than stalk people~ i pity you for once =p

memalui-ing at school~

okay~ let's start with getting to school~.....was i late today??....yes i was ;p *asking my self a question and answering my own question* okay soo after that getting a bit pissed cause someone was making me upset~ inda bth plg tu then got to class and after that went to see ayam<3 talk a bit then class started. half way there i was soooooooo and i mean REALLY weak~...i was tired without a reason~..okay maybe i do cause well im very busy for the pass few weeks, going home at 430 everyday sometimes cause gulingtangan starts as 2 until 4 and my sis got back from work around 430~ so memalui th ku tu, and also we have aerobic for this week just like last year and i had to meet up with my gorup for it, unfortunately we didnt made much progress~ sigh~ then going to the gulingtangan was not that easy....it was at the asrama puteri which is we have to walk pass the gym and then go to the first floor...=.= walking alone towards there also have a disadvantages cause well i dont like walking aloneee...i look like a loner =.= so usually ayam accompany me xD wait....so yeah~ April is the most tired month i've had, for now and we have the sport's day coming up and i'm running as well as a concert for the year 7!! how about that huh?? busy busy busy!!! Dx

okay other than that, so yeah~ busy~~when it was break time, i was to lazy to eat so i went to ayam's class and then remembered there was a meeting for pahlawan =.= so i went to the pahlawan's notice board but then met up with karen and she said there werent any...so i was like 0.o okay so i got back and noticed that feefah gone missing cause i didnt saw her at all today. so got to bilik gulingtangan with my baby qilah *btw ehemehemaniiiiiehemmmm* and thennn......oh yeah played a few songs~ then came feefaha nd i was like 'babeee!!!!!! pikir kau inda kulah 0.o' and then we played some songs and thenn well....we mostly ate and talk gossip and play music~

afternoon at at my class, a bit alone cause i didnt ask ayam to accompany me casue iw asnt him to spent time with his classmates *i feel like taking him away from his classmates so yeah* then came iffah and she aws my savior of the day <3<3<3 anyway after that......well i got to ayam's class after that *inda jua bth bh aku ah* and looked at my fb with my sis's lappy ;p hmmm.....after that at 130 i went to aerobic~ after that hmm oh yeah went to bilik gulingtangan with ayam again but there were no one there and found out there werent practiec to day so again went back to class spent time with qilah and feefah~ so yeah~ much of that was a waste of time and after that i went home slept until 7 maybe and woke up still wearing my pe attire~ then i realised i didnt send ayam home from school~ *inda plg time kul 3 dh ku realised but aku pikir ia blik dh* a big greatttt there -.-

no mood at all

well sorry for everything~ well sorry for talking to a guyy, well sorry for not saying byeee for once cause i was busy~ thanks....

okay~ yeah~ i've been in a bad mood since last night~ well thanks i am jealous but you dont have to be 'ooooo jeles th tu?' like...wth....im not in a good mood and i am MAD at that time thank you and you just act like i never got mad o anything. sighh............it's jsut not fair! you got to be all flirty and all and what do i get? i didnt even flirt and you already went to said that you dont like it =S not fair whhh...you said it's just friends but then i didnt do a thing and it's 100% just friends and then when you started it and i cant get mad at you about it???..........not fairrr T.T and here i am feeling...what? sad? depressed? sober?? *sma jua tu inda kn??* and you dont even know why.......sigh....just depress right now~....

hate this feelings

hmmm....im not in the mood...and well....

wait! before that, MONTHSARY!!! XD

okay continue~ im not in the mood actually...well it's because of my carelessness that i lost the 'thing' and because of that im not in the mood for anything. even chatting with my beloved *apa eh!* daddy, i was weird. i could guess that he realised it, and he actually ask me about it but i just said im fine~ hmmm...and i could guess his thinking about it right now~

jiwang

im not the type to say 'i love you with all my heart, i will never leave you and...' bla bla bla~ what? it's not me!!! im serious! it's like im being jiwang and....'sejak bila c datul jiwang!' *babe's tone* anyway~~ so yeah~ i never thought i would say it until well.....today =.= but yeah~~ i will said it once~ just becasue i said it i would start being jiwang! no way!!! that's men's work ;p heheheh..im bored ;p

update!

hayyyyyyyyy long time no blog eh? anyway~ what have happen in my life? okay let's see....this year im in 40~ and my teacher is miss mel~ okay...why am i saying that? anywayyyyyyyyyy

my last post was about kem qiadah right? so lets start after that camping~ after camping~ i went back to school on the 24th adn 25th cause well i have remedial class unfortunately T, T but the good thing was there was ayam <3 sooooo im not that sad for going to school heheh. then on the 26th i have band and well..the teacher was like 'bru th datang? berapa hari kau inda dtg!' and i will always go 'ehhh aku inda dtg ada sebab x ah cggg. last week aku ilang psl camping x ah!!' and that will be the start of my war of debaate with my lovely cg mos~ wahahahaha then came my other cg mujrah *trumpet teacher* saying 'saadatulll~~~' and i'll go 'ccciiigguuuu~~' and then we start playing out instrument~ i know~ stupid and funny at the same time x) okay next? 27 i went to miri!!! like....i was a bit pissed off casue i didnt have a break other than the 23rd but then my mom said 'bh bli th buku apa sja kau mau' diam trus eh! wahahaha and then the 28 was also band and guess what happen on 29th? 'welcome back to school!' BIG BOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

okay~ soooo school was a bit okay cause well, i met ayam <3 and i missed my friends~ then the next dayyyy 30th which is my b.day~ i woke up seeing my mobile with 2 msg, debby and ayam<3 debby actually msg me a bit early while ayam on time~ a bit;p so he was hyper cause he was the first to msg me on my bday~ what? im not that famous like him~ =.= anyway~ when i got to school, i was like 'okay....no one will sing..please let it be like that!' so at first yeah no one did~ and i got a present from qilah and awang *toot* after that when i was late for class *dating ;p;p;p* i got to class and everyone started singing!!! i was like "$#!t!!!" and well....that got me maluuuuuu. break time! feefah gave me a present then caring =) so yeah~ a big better than last year's bday but still! i will never celebrate it at school ever again. then it was lunch and ayam was going home. he was acting a bit strange like over the top and i knew it why from the start. also he was being over by saying that he didnt got me anything. so when he was about to go home, i was packing my stuff smiling to myself cause he was being weird, he suddenly ia bagi aku rantai~ *ia pakaikn lh ah* and i was more smiling than ever!! wahahahaha and then he gave me his pooh bear =') sweettttt;p when night came at home and it was dinner, i was surprised by a cake form my sisteyr and 2 teddy bears in addition with my mobile! *which was broken a few months back* so i was ultra happy! xD then i went to have a date with my facebook where i have to reply everyone's greetings! i was like.....'oh damn! this is tooo much!!!! but i have to work hard!!!!' so yeah~ that's my birthday......NEXT!!!!!!!

31st march was....what happen ah? nothing much i guess, then 1 april i got april fooled by farhan at facebook, then the start of our gulingtangan practice....dont really remember what happen after that day until today ofcurse which is the 7th april? i hope so cause i'm to lazy to cek the date~ anywayyyyyyyy today started as usual for me....AT FIRST.

got up, took my shower, dress, got to school. saw ayam and waved to him cause i was dangani jihah to take the blue file, then he waved back but didnt looked at my face....so i knew something was wrong instantly. after that i got to his class and he didnt look at me, he didnt said anything otherthan answer what i ask him....so i was like....okay i did something wrong here. first i thought i was casue i didnt msg him last night, but nope..he didnt said about that, so i wonder what about....he even used 'aku ,kau' at that time so i knew it was fault....but i still couldn't think of a thing i did wrong other than no msg him and that made me feel bad already! i actually didnt even had the mood to study because of it! well nt really~ i had fun in maths and poa ;p then break timee......sighhh i found out what it was about~ and by knowing i was force to think about it and he i didnt even dare to look at his face anymore~ i hate it when his mad at me(well he said just sad but still that face is making me scared and desperate to make it a smile!!!) so when i said the answer, it was almost a whisper and i almost cried Dx damn him! so yeah~ after that he said he had physics and i went to class with out looking back *not a good idea thought* i hid behind the door for a while and cried A BIT! i know babe and bebek! no good for crying for the guy who is not my husband! but still~ you guys cried tooo why not i? anyway~ as i was going to tell it to jihah, then miss lim came and well....i held it in as usual~ emglish was sumarry where everyone was bored and sleepy, then IRK where i actually didnt listend much but managed to memorized everything ;p then lunch and didnt went to ayam's class cause i thought he went home but when i finished eating he came out and i was 0.o '$#!t not again!!' so when i came out he said 'behapa kau sini? aga th ada jua c jihah tu, agath!' and well....that hurts and i went back inside.....sighhh....okay that still hurt....seriously ='( then zatul, jihah and zemah went to look at my face casue i was going to cry again but i held it, in truth i didnt wasnt to cry for him...he might not be my husband, me might be my husband *he might be my last* so.....amin~ anywayyy, so yeah~ when i saw him going home...i went to walk behind him and he saw me...otw turuh he said 'behapa kau sini? ada jua c jihah tu d klas' and well...since that hurt me ALOT! i look away....we walk in silence until at the concourse *bad place for dating 100%* we didnt say much, and i tried to make conversation but couldnt find what to say about....then...i dont know how we end up talking..maybe cause he actually looked at me *serious face* and i look back but couldnt hold it cause i felt guilty, then he rub my cheek, twice....then he held my face, i guess a way saying that his not mad at me? i dont know~ or just he want to talk with me at last. i talk a bit and he talk a bit and it became a long conversation after that =) though i ended up stress when he went home smiling but it was alright. then dating with my babe~ gossiping and updating ;p became a loner from 3 to 430~ *no offense babe ;p i know ur bz~* then went home sleep with my sis dnner and me updating my blog ;p

so that's about it with my life~ having a nyamal, controlling and moddy boyfriend but at the same time his sweet cute *not yet handsome* caring and most of all just irresistible ;p then having a bz bestfriend *aku pun bz bahhh* having a normal birthday~ and most of all no annoying people in my life~ =) loving my life as it used to be and well~ it's more fun when you have everything you loved together x)