best friends? do you have one? or should i say 5? yeah...i do, i guess. why i'm not certain? ahahah that because i dont know if they really are my best friends ever since the incident a few months back. so here is how it all started actually;
in my early form 2 2008, i had a really big fight with my previous best friend and we never talk to each other anymore. yeah, i know~ it's a bit over the top but she started it. so yeah, i never got to talk with her anymore ever since that fight. so after loosing another fake best friend, i be friend with 5 people. they were nest friends ever since form 1 2007, so they all were really tight when i joined them. as usual~ best friends share everything with each other and i became attached to them in no time~ face it, i'm friendly ;D okay so yeah~ i met my present best friends last year~ and i joined in their group i guess. when we were in form 3 2009, our seat were really seperated but at least we were still tight. that was after i started haging out with a guy. and let me tell you, his a really amazing guy! and what's wrong in that huh? not long, i fell in love~ hahaha (n//n) so i started spending my time with him more than my other friends and since i was in love you know the drill right?? hahahah wajib tu rsanya~ hahahaha XP
when my best friends heard about it, they wanted to report me despite the face that out teacher wanted to give a second chance. during that time, i was still out of my mind with the person i love and left my best friends. i know it was a bad thing to do~ and i admit i regreat ever soing all of that but what can i do to stop what i have done in the past? nothing right? =) so yeah, on the last day of the 2nd term of school i suddeny woken up from my long so very long sleep.
i told him about it and he agreed, we were to lose contact until everything was back together. when i finally apologised to my best friends, expecting a welcom back smile from my beloved friends, the other thing happened. they told me that they hated me and to just do what ever i want with my life. my reaction?? the world i know became hell. yes, i know i'm still holding it until now, but try feeling what i'm feeling right now~ rejected by your own bestfriends. the only thing i could do was cry and cry. i cried so hard that day but i was strong due to my other friends where i made with in the times i was still a bit crazy and that was also the only thing that helped me with everything.
when the school was reopened, getting ready ti apologised to my teacher as well as my best friends again i met him. still remembering the agreement, i looked away and we didnt talked, smiled or even looked at each other. so yeah, giving up something to get something in return. the first day was hell, my best friends didnt want to talk to me, my teacher was cold towards me and not talking to him was even more painful. when finally my teacher forgave us, i need to worry about my best friends for then on. that time was the season of exams~ adehhh ada g season tu~ hahahah anyway yeah~ it was the qualifying exam people so it was hard for me to deal with it.
when i was at home, suppose to be studying, i made a letter for each one of them saying sorry to each one of them and everything. i was seriously in hell at that time and cried everytime i was alone. the next day, i got to class early and put the letter inder their table. when the exam was about to start, the first person to say thnks to me was also the same person to smile to me, it was Caring, and that made me smile back. she's the only person that i really apriciate right now and thnks to her i was feeling better as well. i was an empty soul walking with no real reason.
soon after, i got used to my best friends again and we we back to our usual life. after getting used to my best friend i could finally talk to him after that. but eversince that day, i always tried to avoid my best friends, i dont know why but everytime im with them i felt really ackward. i know they never experience what i've done and they somehow really tried to remind me of that. maybe it was only me but i didnt liked it so i always ran away.
sometimes, i thought about what they had done to me, and i wondered, why didnt they talked to me about it when i was going crazy? why didnt they tried to advice me? was that friends? not giving any second chance is what a BEST FRIEND should do???? dont make fun of me or mock me! yeah so what i was somehow a new comer in your group/geng? is that what best friends should do? so yeah, i was hurt by what they tried to do to me, maybe it was the right thing to do for them but it was the wrong thing to do in all of our point of view. even out own teacher, who was holding it so much even before they knew it gave us a second chance. how i wanted to shout to them for doing that to me, for betraying my trust in them as my very first real best friends. well, i guess i was wrong =)
so let me ask you, what is a best friend?
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Sunday, November 29, 2009
bestfriends
Posted by Appy at 10:34 PM
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