bestfriends

best friends? do you have one? or should i say 5? yeah...i do, i guess. why i'm not certain? ahahah that because i dont know if they really are my best friends ever since the incident a few months back. so here is how it all started actually;

in my early form 2 2008, i had a really big fight with my previous best friend and we never talk to each other anymore. yeah, i know~ it's a bit over the top but she started it. so yeah, i never got to talk with her anymore ever since that fight. so after loosing another fake best friend, i be friend with 5 people. they were nest friends ever since form 1 2007, so they all were really tight when i joined them. as usual~ best friends share everything with each other and i became attached to them in no time~ face it, i'm friendly ;D okay so yeah~ i met my present best friends last year~ and i joined in their group i guess. when we were in form 3 2009, our seat were really seperated but at least we were still tight. that was after i started haging out with a guy. and let me tell you, his a really amazing guy! and what's wrong in that huh? not long, i fell in love~ hahaha (n//n) so i started spending my time with him more than my other friends and since i was in love you know the drill right?? hahahah wajib tu rsanya~ hahahaha XP

when my best friends heard about it, they wanted to report me despite the face that out teacher wanted to give a second chance. during that time, i was still out of my mind with the person i love and left my best friends. i know it was a bad thing to do~ and i admit i regreat ever soing all of that but what can i do to stop what i have done in the past? nothing right? =) so yeah, on the last day of the 2nd term of school i suddeny woken up from my long so very long sleep.

i told him about it and he agreed, we were to lose contact until everything was back together. when i finally apologised to my best friends, expecting a welcom back smile from my beloved friends, the other thing happened. they told me that they hated me and to just do what ever i want with my life. my reaction?? the world i know became hell. yes, i know i'm still holding it until now, but try feeling what i'm feeling right now~ rejected by your own bestfriends. the only thing i could do was cry and cry. i cried so hard that day but i was strong due to my other friends where i made with in the times i was still a bit crazy and that was also the only thing that helped me with everything.

when the school was reopened, getting ready ti apologised to my teacher as well as my best friends again i met him. still remembering the agreement, i looked away and we didnt talked, smiled or even looked at each other. so yeah, giving up something to get something in return. the first day was hell, my best friends didnt want to talk to me, my teacher was cold towards me and not talking to him was even more painful. when finally my teacher forgave us, i need to worry about my best friends for then on. that time was the season of exams~ adehhh ada g season tu~ hahahah anyway yeah~ it was the qualifying exam people so it was hard for me to deal with it.

when i was at home, suppose to be studying, i made a letter for each one of them saying sorry to each one of them and everything. i was seriously in hell at that time and cried everytime i was alone. the next day, i got to class early and put the letter inder their table. when the exam was about to start, the first person to say thnks to me was also the same person to smile to me, it was Caring, and that made me smile back. she's the only person that i really apriciate right now and thnks to her i was feeling better as well. i was an empty soul walking with no real reason.

soon after, i got used to my best friends again and we we back to our usual life. after getting used to my best friend i could finally talk to him after that. but eversince that day, i always tried to avoid my best friends, i dont know why but everytime im with them i felt really ackward. i know they never experience what i've done and they somehow really tried to remind me of that. maybe it was only me but i didnt liked it so i always ran away.

sometimes, i thought about what they had done to me, and i wondered, why didnt they talked to me about it when i was going crazy? why didnt they tried to advice me? was that friends? not giving any second chance is what a BEST FRIEND should do???? dont make fun of me or mock me! yeah so what i was somehow a new comer in your group/geng? is that what best friends should do? so yeah, i was hurt by what they tried to do to me, maybe it was the right thing to do for them but it was the wrong thing to do in all of our point of view. even out own teacher, who was holding it so much even before they knew it gave us a second chance. how i wanted to shout to them for doing that to me, for betraying my trust in them as my very first real best friends. well, i guess i was wrong =)

so let me ask you, what is a best friend?

~2008~

2009=')

sick!

hahah *sniff sniff*......ah...ah.......achoooo!!!!!.....*sniff sniff*....yes...i know...i'm sick....so how i got sick???.....*sniff sniff*.......it was....o.o i dont really know how i get sick. okay, it was actually because i was love sick. okay, im not sure i was actually love sick at all, my brother-who was sick after going back from uk-was sick and he actually cough in front of my face, so yeah i was sick ==' anyway it's been like.....4 days....and the first, i got a fever and a sore throat. then the second day which i was at Husna's house for a bbq, i was having i high fever (when i got home) and i was actually lying on the ground with a big cold. third day, i started to cough for a bit and my fever got down, but running nose was a big problem!!! i was using a full big plastic bag because of it. fourth, which is today, just a cough...but im going to the mall today with Babe Qilah, Bebek Feefah n Debby. so yeah...wish me luck...

cant sleep thanks you 'paranormal activity' >=)

thank you very much to 'paranormal activity' that i didn't even manged to get any sleep last night. well, i finally got to sleep, but it was way pass my bed time and it was already 4am great and i woke up around 7 this morning with a dream that all of my cousin could not sleep too. so if your wondering what are paranormal activity, go look for it at youtube or what ever or just buy the cd. but i'll explain it to you for a bit.

the story is, as it is in the title, about paranormal activity. it was located in Chicago i think and a couple maybe just moved in to their new house. dont blame me if i'm wrong. cause i arrived late at the gathering at my cousin and i only managed to watch it half. so yeah~ the couple manes are Katie and Micah. the one that are being disturb here is Katie. the story was recorded in a video cam and well it really do show how the 'thing' try to get Katie. the part where i'm watching it was near the end already so if you could guess, horror movied near the end is freaky right? hahaha yeah~ so here is where i started watching

at first Katie was possesed, and she was standing looking at her husband all night from 12am until 3. when it was 3 she walk down and we couldnt see her. when her husband finally realised his wife is gone, he went to search for her at found her outside at the swings. Micah try to tell her to go to bed, but she want to be left alone. so Micah, being a good husband, went back up stairs to get her a blanket. in their bedroom, Micah suddenly hear some noice and look back, Kaite was suddenly at the door and she asked why is Micah up? sooo that really showed that Katie was being possesed at that time and didnt realised anything.

another night was where Micah put floor/flower?? tapung wh...my english suck at this time having only 3 hours of sleep==''. anyway, yeah~ he put that on the floor and they went to bed. later that night, foot prints...well...not foot prints, hand prints was seen on the floor. weird and we all scremed when we saw it.

the 'thing' tried to distured them everynight with different ways and all. once their door suddenly close it self. another was where the light was switched on on it own. oh man, i'll never get to sleep after this. but the 18 day it went worse.

that night, the 'thing' went to their room and tried to take Kaite but it didnt. her blanket was blown by something but that was only it. so it showed that the 'thing' was going to take her. and by the next night, it did! her leg was draged and she screamed for her husband. it was freaky and as usual, everyoned screamed!!! Kaite was dragged down the stairs as well~ as what we heard in the movie. that morning, she showed that she was bitten by something cause bite marks was at her back. ouch babe!!!! and freaky!!!! and by that day, she was possesed.

by the 20th night, kaite went to do the same thing, she wakes up at 12am and then looked at her sleeping husband until it was 3. at that time i was already screaming that she will go down and she did. after awhile, we heard a scream and Micah jump off from bed and ran down. the video cam was left up stairs at bed so we could only managed to hear their voiced. we heard that Micah was hurt and then we heard footsteps. we waited and waited and Katie appeared with blood on her cloths and a knife in hand. she killed Micah. she sat near her bed for the whole day. when the police suddenly arrived, the other room across theirs switched on and the off. the police came and katie suddenly went screaming to the policed saying "where's Micah where's Micah!' and she was shoot dead. that was the end of the movie and at the last part, the 'thing' finally left her when the light was switched on across the room.

so the only reason why i coundnt get any sleep was because i was sleeping alone and the scene where she was draged out always came across my head. this is the second night after the movie, the first night i managed to get some sleep casue i was at my cousin's house for a sleepover~~ but tonight i was sleeping alone and didnt managed to get any sleep until 4am!!! and that i tried to tired my self out as well. so yeah, where i was still at my cousin's house, Wapi one of my cousin as well, an lower 6th told me that the movie was fake. i was....o.o are you sure!!!??? it looked real to me! and he said they made it with computer and everything. and i was...so what was the point of us sleeping together last night. that was yesterday~ bit i still couldnt get any sleep so no help there for telling me about the movie is fake. i was still afraid of it.

taht all for now~ well forgave me about spelling errors okay~ i dont look at the screen if im typing~

out
Appy143

letting it out here ==''

haha...guess what? it's a good thing i haven't got much followers on my blog. well...to tell you the truth...i'm sad. I've been sad for a while already. why you might ask me? well..it's because people kept making me feel insecure. why guys? why??? why cant you just leave me alone. i never tag along in your relationship, i never made you feel insecure about your relationship. so what i'm a bit different? why do you guys have to tag along?? i know my true feelings already and i know he's. if i didnt know his feelings, then why am i still with him until now?? why do you guys even think of me sticking with him in my situation already?? it's because i love him and i know he love me too. mind your own business. thnks to you guys, i'm feeling insecure all the time, i dont even know my feelings anymore thnks to you guys. just stop butting in. if i need your help then i'll ask you to, but if i dont...then just mind your own business. it's my feelings...not yours and you guys dont have the right to even make me feel this way. urgh! i wanna cry.....im feeling insecure even deeply it's not fair, i dont want any of this. please....just stop asking me questions...

attacked by animals

it was a normal day on 30th October 09. well...that was what i was planing on to. it got attacked by 2 animals that day and one succeed. the animals are...the ugly Monkey and C Mata Merah Hamster. can you guys figured out which animal got me? i got a bleeding finger after that.

so here how it start. i was just playing with my computer~ cheeking my facebook and everything. going online and chatting with some of my friends. that i saw something moved at the corner of my eyes, i thought it was a cat, but that's impossible, i don't have a cat in the house. my dad don't like them. i turn my head and saw a monkey. the monkey was also looking at me. i looked back at my computer and turn back my head almost suddenly. the monkay as still looking at me, and my head suddenly went lagging. i looked at the monkey and finally realised that there's a monkey at my house!!!

i tried to throw something to it but when i looked at the table. there wasnt even anything big for me to throw at it. so the only thing that i can think of was to scream. so i screamed and the monkey ran away to my sister's room. my mom shouted from downstairs asking why i was shouting and i told her that there was a monkey. this is the second time a monkey got into the house. my sister, who was sleeping woke up cause of my scream, got up taking a broom. i was holding a mop and a long stick, i gave it to my mom after that. we went to my sister's room and the monkey as no where to be seen. the window was open so we figured that it ran away.

the second animal was a hamster. my sister told me that C Mata Merah, if you hold it gently, it wouldnt bite. so after feeling bored, i went to play with it. when i tried to hold it. at first it smelled my hand. then suddenly it bit me! i was....'BANGKAI KO!!!' my had eventually let out a red liquid which is my blood. the blood made a lot of mess on the tissue i used and eventually i didnt want to play with the hamster again.

so it was really unfortunate of me to be attacked by two animals in one day!