is it that easy to move on?

Awful.

its awful. why? cause i cant do it. it hurts. fuck this.

feel like doing this *picture below* except i'm not that pretty and i cant find a rose right now. and whats that red thing on her hands?

Just got back from KL

OH MYYYY!!! do you know how long i've tried to log in to my blog ac????? almost 2 hours!!! why?? cause i frekin forgot my password and! when i did, i got lost at the verifying my ac. which was also another, WTF moment --" damn it. Anyway, so i FINALLY logged in to my blog.

Heyy! I'm back from KL or Melaka or Port Dicksom in Negeri Sembilan =D my flight just arrived to day and i was away form my family for a week, since i was going there with my cousins. anyway, i had fun, tiring but fun =) not in the mood to tell how it went in detail but we went all around by foot so now i cant walk without feeling the ache of it ==, it was fun. REALLY! especially KL where we were there during chrismas eve and new years eve as well and the place was crowded!! they didnt even recognised me and my cousins as Bruneian. they thought we were somewhere Orang Sabah or Philippians or even Indonesian. =O very funny. =D

Hospital

went to the hospital yesterday, hospital Muara. man as it gotten bigger. hahaha. anyway, so was waiting for the doctor to call me about my eye. i knew it was pitutan, only, mom wasnt sure. so when the doctor went to check my eye, he said it was pitutan. it was normal and bla bla bla. sadly, he didnt give any med for it cause, he said it'll cure on its own. and if it's still there for another....lets say, 2 weeks. then i should go to the doctors again and ask for some antibiotics cause my body is too weak. --" hope it'll go away when i'm in KL.

My EYE!

its getting worst? its getting better. not sure. =/ its almost a week and its still worst! doakan tah baik mta ku before i go to KL! AMIN

The Lion King

just watched The Lion King. yes its been decades ago that it was released but i tell ya ;p its still awesome. and i didnt seem to remember there were a lot of singing =O i'll talk about that later, anyway so yes, the movie is still awesome. i never actually remembered how the story went cause, i was still....what? a few years? the story came out in 1994 and i was born in 1995. it was in Disney so i was watching disney starting when i was........4 or 5? so..i dont really remember the story except that the lion's name is simba.

baby Simba introduced to the kingdom.

so after watching the story, i now FINALLY understand it, it was a story where scar the uncle wanted to be king. so he went to kill simba's dad, which i finally knew was Mufassa, and he wanted to kill simba too. so when Mufassa finally died, he ordered the hyenas to eat him, but of course, he ran away.

Mufassa died while Simba crying ='(

there, almost dying of thirst, timon and pumbaa (my fav character in the lion king) found him and kept him, in hope simba would protect them someday. so they started teaching simba the way of the hakuna matata, and finally simba grew up. he met Lola right before she got to eat Pumba, and they fell in love.

Timon teaching Simba what to eat. i used to believe it too when i was a kid.

awesome hair xD

Timon and Pumbaa didnt want Simba to leave.

Simba then came back and challenged Scar and long story shorter, he died. their's also a continuation with The Lion King 2 simba's pride. just watched the trailer XD

Scar and Simba fighting it off!

anyway so the song, it was okayy...but my favorite was the Hakuna Matata by pumba and Timon xD

cam whoring.

yeah well, today seem like a boring day and i havent cam whore as much so i did. and yeah.

rock on? =.='

Mwah!

i seeee youuu xD

twitter dp.for now that is, well, until i reach my 21100th tweet ;p somehow i like it but somehow i feel like i wanna change my lips o.o i dont usually take pictures like that --,

ate ice cream just now =D

your bare head.

i'm some what intersted in hats right now =O enjoy~

cute~

colourful =D

bought this for my bestfriend, didnt bought for my own sadly

an All Time Low Knit Winder Hat ='/ i wanted to buy it, but the website couldnt accept my friends debit card T.T

you get that feeling where every bad thing that have happen to you are erased? well, i'm in cloud 9 =3

I dont feel like moving on right now. xD

its not me btw.

Lonely night.

lonely night. well, maybe not, going to chat with a friend. but then, he is the only person i'm going to talk to. every single night! not that i dont mind, hey he is still my bestfriend. okay, maybe i talk that back, his EVERTHING i ever wanted. sadly, we're not meant to be. so anyway, lonely night because i dont have a boyfriend! i want to, but i cant seem to start telling i'm interested, or heck, on the market.

but then again, people did say that dont look for love as it will hit you on your most unexpected time, with the unexpected people and suppose to be at the right place. so heck, sometimes i wish come faster, i've waited loooong enough. sometimes, i feel, hey, dont ever come cause i'm fine with this guy already.

sadly, even if i pray to Allah every single night, i try my hardest, he wouldnt budge, he would give in. so well, i cant no nothing but to move on. and wait for the right person. but sometimes, i would just be pleased with what ever i had.

i'm not making sense cause i'm just trying to waste time here. oh theres goes my 3 minutes :D

Cravings away!

got my carrot cake =3 hehehe. its so good, well due most of it cause i'm having my cravings. anyway, so i was tweeting a lot and i mean A LOT about carrot cake and most of my friends started asking, 'nyaman ka carrot cake ane?' i told them it iss! well, for me it is. really =) but it turns out, they miss think the carrot cake as a real cake. you know. the round cake with carrots sticking out of them --"

what i mean about carrot cake was the chinese food, see previous post. anyway, so yeah, its somewhere and actually do contain a bit of tofu, a lot of white carrots? lobak putih (in malay), taugih (dont know in english) eggs and a few more things i think o.o and it actually have different task to be done just to complete it. you have to steam some of it, i think, and then you have to cook the other part of it and yada yada yada.

yup, it sounds different, and weird, but its good. trust me, it isss. if it wasnt that good, then i would have not crave for it just a few hours ago. anyway, so if you actually tried it and feel like, what the hell i was talking about? well just remember, not everyone is equally the same. maybe i have too many taste buds, or maybe not enough, or better yet, maybe the cook isnt good enough. who knows ;p

heres my carrot cake just now =3

Carrot Cake =|..

i'm hungry. and for some reason i just want to eat Carrot cake!! not a cake, but the Chinese carrot cake! Dx asked my sis to buy if for me, i even told her i'll pay. but she wouldnt =/ i even intended to buy her a carrot cake too xp its not that farr, just at the Stadium, afew minutes away. and i'm really cravings for it D=

its so tasty and has this little tofu? i dont really know! all i know is that i just want it so bad right now! HUH!

Stress?

have you ever felt so stress that you feel like......

bitting your whole career?

SCREAMING your heart out...

until your head turns purple....

and eventually explode?

yup..thats stress for ya. its mostly because....

you have so many to study for and so little time!!!

then you have so many to do after so much you did at school,

Finally you cant seem to understand a single word this is. (dont bother reading it, i feel stress as it is!)

so what are we going to do??

take HOLIDAY! go to the beach!

have a good spaa massagee x3

try doing yoga for once~

if tht wouldnt work, then well,

DANCE IT OFF! xD

Annoying!

annoyed. someone tired to hacked to my twitter ac --" really? when i tried to log in, twitter kept telling me that my ps was wrong somehow. so i went to checked my Hotmail and apparently, twitter send me a message that my twitter ac was being hacked so it changed my ps on its own --" gee thanks twitter, mind to tell me who?? cause its frekin annoying.... now i had to change my ps again. urgh. annoying people hacking my ac, dont you have a life???

sleepover

had a sleepover with my czn last night. now i'm home, unfortunately. Anyway, went there somewhere at 8pm and then we started watching HeartString. well, i dont really know the story so i'm jsut watching. then after 10pm we went upstairs.

there we went to my czn's room and we talk about guys, guys, guys...mostly guys! hahaha xp and then we talk about family x3 anyway so yes, girls, we talk, we gossip we give experience ;p though its not like the usual sleep over where we give blowjob experience or what so ever like the story in "white chick' hahah!

one of my czn, she can never seem to stop talking, bla this and bla that, and me and the host, was 'owh, yeah, i know right' 'agreed!' and you get the picture. me on the other hand was texting on the internet, as well as the host and finally my czn who talks a lot fell asleep xp

so it was peace and quite and i finally feel asleep at 1?

the next morning, which is today, the rest of my czn, which was next door, turns out slept at 4am. =O and she told us that she herd someone laughing at 2 and going to the toilet over and over again. we all were like.....no one was awake by them o.o

spooky!

lyric- All Time Low Return the favor

Return the favor

Oh no. Look what you've done.

That's me, the victim of a hit-and-run.

Picked up and let down,

You were never as you led on.

You said just friends, and no strings,

But that leaves loose ends for all flings.

Get back to old days and old flames,

You never let burn out.

Won't you let me know?

How do I get away,

when you're beggin' me to stay?

What do you need me to say?

You're anything but ordinary.

What do you want me to do?

I've given it all to you.

I wish you would return the favor.

Did you forget what I said?

Train wreck. Here we, here we go again.

Derailed and I failed to mention,

I put it on the line.

Whether you and me could ever be we'll never see, no.

'Cause you keep the lights off,

We only do it in the dark.

Won't you let me know?

How do I get away,

when you're beggin' me to stay?

What do you need me to say?

You're anything but ordinary.

What do you want me to do?

I've given it all to you.

I wish you would return the favor.

Are you gonna throw it all away?

(Do, do, do me a favor)

Are we gonna do this all again?

(All)

Maybe it's all pretend,

And the game should end,

I guess nobody wins.

(Won't you let me know?)

How do I get away,

when you're beggin' me to stay?

What do you need me to say?

You're anything but ordinary.

What do you want me to do?

I've given it all to you.

I wish you would return the favor.

How do I get away,

when you're beggin' me to stay? (Throw it all away)

What do you need me to say? (Be okay someday)

You're anything but ordinary.

What do you want me to do? (I'm gonna throw it all away)

I've given it all to you.

I wish you would return the favor.

Twitter

anyone have a twitter? cause i do. =p not that i'm trying to gain more followers, its just that i'm that bored. anyway, so my twitter https://twitter.com/#!/Appy143 has a background picture of ALT =) my favourite band which they never seen to follow me back but are following my other bestfriend who isnt that much of a fan like me ='(

anyway, i've had it since 2009 same time i made this blog actually, and well, its has about 20k tweets already. and i'm actually proud of that =O anyway i usually tweeted random stuff but as you know twitter has a 140 character limit and its not that much fun if your want to tweet more than that. so maybe thats also the reason why i have a lot more tweets and usually tweeted like 100 a day? approximately. (if i'm really am bored)

followers, who actually follow me and i dont really know them dont get a follow back. cause, well, i dont know you --" why would i follow back? but depends on the circumstances of the situation. you might be cute ;p hahaha. alright2.

what else hmm, twitter is usually the first think i've checked on the morning and all i do is look at mentions. yeah, then i'll go tweet some random stuff again and i was just hoping no one is annoyed that i've flooded their timeline. but if i am, well, sorry about that ;p

background picture for now <3

A little swollen eye

my right eye is a little swollen. i dont know how but its been aching for the past 2 days. now its a little swollen so i think i have to see a doctor --" look at how its almost unseen yet so seen-able. (what am i saying?)

i dont think you could see the different in the colour o.o right side is a lot redder than the left side actually

see a small line there??

i myself cant really see it =O

Dresses

i love dresses, i dont know why but i love em =O i just hope you guys could see the picture~ x)

When i was a kid

When we were kids. we didnt know out parents have to have sex to have us. when i was a kid, i thought they just have to sleep in one bed and *poff* 'i'm in the tummy'

when i was a kid i used to think i can change my life and more to someone else's by day. but i never tried it cause it never occurred to me that i couldnt. and then it hit me that i'm going to be 'me' for the rest of my life, and i was horrified o.o

When i was a kid i was so quite that dad always forgets to drop me off to my school.

When i was a kid i never liked taking pictures of myself. now look at me, a cam-whore.

When i was a kid, i thought kissing was...well......nothing.

When i was a kid, my hair was too long for everyone to not try to tied it up.

When i was a kid, i believed i can have superpowers and would jumped on my bed imagining flames or fire balls came out of my hands.

When i was a kid, 'i'm calling your mom!!' was the most scariest thing ever.

When i was a kid, boys was stupid and ugly. now look at me, having to hold a scream when i see a hot guyy or a hot body ;p

when i was a kid, i dont minggle much with my cousins.

When i was a kid, i was bullied by this one girl who is also my friend at that time. now i'm dont give a damn to people who talk ass about me, cause well, their just jealous.

When i was a kid, all i did was watch tv.

When i was a kid, a computer was like 'WOW!!' now we have ipad1 and ipad2 with iphones and itouch.

The big IF

there is this guy and a girl. they were friends, and it lead to love. usually, people seem to think, hey it'll be a happy ending. but sometimes it isnt and people move past that. but do people ever wonder what happens after they break up? what if they get back together? what if their sworn enemies. what if their friends. what if they became bestfriends?

like, seriously, theres a big IF in everything and you can never be certain about everything. its just like how i thought they can always be friends. but now, it seem like she still loves him. and he seem to love her too. but they put their love aside and they put their worries first. they wish each other happiness even if it hurts them in return.

so tell me what type of relationship is that? are they actually still lovers, or their just lying their ass off with each other. his jealous, shes hurt. come on. they talk particularly everyday. and yet how do they expect to move on by that? can they? or are they just going to ignore the feeling they feel for each other.

you know the funny thing is, they both think that they can never be together anymore. not now, but their sure there is a second chance. but when are they going to take that second chance where its already right there in front of them. what sign do they have to see or get if for them to be together again?

nothing.

so tell me this, why are they in love with each other where each of them are wiling to give each other away. they knew they wanted each other. so why not?

Supernatural

oooOOooOOooooo~~ its about ghost and demons and devils and angels. yup, its something we think that dont exist, or does it? ;p

its about this brother~ Sam and Dean Winchester, Dean being the big bro and Sam the trying so hard to tell Dean and Bobby his mature enough to have his own way. anyway not going to say about their life, which is also awesome, i'm just going to say its a really awesome series, scary and you dont feel like sleeping alone at night but you know it wouldnt do you no good cause you'll die!! hahaha. okay, kidding. they have 7 seasons, currently showing season 7 already and let me tell you, its getting harder and harder NOT to stop watching. its like an addiction. but then, you also need to have time to keep track with their series right?

Season 1 was mostly about looking for their dad and they mostly meet and kill ghost that are really scary. like Bloddy Mary and the Women In White. yupp! that is freaky, and its season 1!

Season 2 is about still looking where their dad was and who actually killed her mom and Jessy as well as knowing what is wrong with Sam. Their dad is back btw but he made a deal with the devil just to save Dean.

Season 3 is where Dean made a deal to save sam! i know right? its a family of making deals and saving each other, sweet? ;p hahaha. okay, so Dean had a year to live and so was actually a short season.

Season 4 is where everything started twisting around. Sam was making out with a demon called Ruby (which is his wife in real life) and *drum roll* Dean is back from the dead. well, his back from Hell. an angel called Castiel said he brought Dean back from Hell. oh and the demons are trying to get Lucifer out of the cage in Hell.

Season 5 its a heaven and hell war. angels and demons are fighting to the death and well, Sam and Dean are in the middle of it! Lucifer is out of hell and is walking the earth. and what do you know, Sam is the true vessel for Lucifer and Dean is the true vessel for Micheal. so twisted!!

Season 6 Sam was in hell, Lucifer is back in the cage with Micheal. Cas died and undied again. and Sam was back. Dean had a normal life, he had a family with Ben and Lisa but the past was pulling him back. so when he knew Sam was back, everything crashed. theres also a catch thought, Sam was back, but without a soul.

Season 7 sam got his soul back, as well his memory of Hell. Dean is keeping secrets and theirs a new bad boy running the earth.

yup yup yup. i'm a fan. not hardcore but hay ;p what else am i going to do other than watch series?