CCA-spinning

Spinning. its like cycling. but your dancing to a beat as well ==,

anyway, this year, finally, o had a CCA out of school! and say what? its at the Fitness zone. anyway, so yeah. today was my first CCA class spinning and i am a excited. actually it was very awkward with everyone cause my friends werent there. anyway, so yeah spinning. so when we actually and finally started i was like, wtf? why are we standing up while cycling?? and why is this machine wouldnt listen to my feet?

so the first thing that we all did was sprint! then shoulder movenment. moving to the side and all that. and i would tell you, being a fist timer. well hell. i SERIOUSLY CANNOT TAKE IT! its like running while dancing at the same time and you have to synchronized both of it together. i was like fuck, i cant do two at a time???

even my safety....what ever you call it, kept on falling out. its so dangerous you know? i could injured myself doing so. anyway, so yeah its fucking tiring.

oh and what was even more awesome about spinning is the fact that AFTER you actually finish the 30 minutes exercise (i thought it was an hour) my legs just picked the time where it just feel asleep. so i was lucky enough to have a riling beside me to actually pull myself upwards ==, when while waking i was wobbly like hell. yes, i am telling you. SPINNING is tiring!

but i am also hoping that i will get used to it cause it is fun =) it makes my leg stronger for running. my arms actually have cuttings and well, shappen your butt.

one last thing, i actually have souvenirs from spinning. 3 beautiful purple spots appeard on my leg. ha-ha-ha.

1st Homework

it was my....3rd day of school and FINALLY i got some homework to do x) thought i had to hand it in by next monday...not tomorrow (monday). next monday. anyway, so it was General Paper and it was presentation. i was in group 1 which was the easiest group! where we were just have to explain the types of mass media hahaha! alright, so what else?

oh i FINALLY talked to him. =) smilesss yup yup yup. thought i dont know if i see him as an ex right now cause i'm too happy to be finally talking to him again. anyway, so he has been very kind to me and all that stuff. thought he was worried about my tweets on twitter last night hahaha. anyway so actually, he was on his way to class while i was going the same way. so when on the stairs i pulled his bag and we talked. FINALLY shouted my head. smile and laugh and at the end aku salam ia =) he is still my brother and i am still his sister as well we are still bestfriends. so yeah, i'm that happy to know that we are talking again =)

stupidity.

i knew something was going to happen. and i knew it was my fault. so why the hell did i even started it.

yeah. i ended up crying my ass off last night. i even woke up with a swollen eye. haish. i know its stupid buy hey. what am i suppose to do? i miss him and he was pushing me away. i know its was for the best but still ==" i am so fucking sad. and i dont know what to do. i dont wanna see him as an ex. i want to see him as someone important, someone i trust. someone...i can depend on. is that love? is it stupid to think that? cause............what am i suppose to do? to not fall for you yet to still need you.

first day in school!

after a month of holiday from o'lvl we're finally back to school. it was such a cheerful day and everyone was hugging and smiling and laughing. me, well, i was nervous! i was going to see him and we werent suppose to talk. and i was like o-m-g! but i got pass it by not looking at him even thought i would know where he would sit and i can actually notice him in an instant. yeah, i know. its so sad.

anyway, so i got to school very happy and nervous as well as with a LOT of present in hand and in my new bag. it was december gifts from my trip to KK Pontianak and KL. anyway so i went to look for a fresh table since i was there first out of all my gangs. so i sat there. awkwardly alone and have nothing else to do...other than stare at him from a far and hoping he wouldnt look at me. even thought deep in my heart i know it bloomed whenever i see his face. my gawd!!.

anyway (again), i waited for my friend and when they came slowly to school, we started laughing and screaming and well, just being crazy. hey, we were girls gone wild a few months back xp hahaha. so we went to the audi, me telling alll the dirty secrets to my one fav bestfriend who i trust the most. while the principle welcomed us all back we talk and talk and talk. hey, i cant blame anyone for girls being so talkative. and the teacher sitting exactly behind us didnt seem to care about it. but i did listen to it a bit like how we're suppose to be mature enough to start studying harder than out o'lvl and crap like that.

then they went to talk about disciplines and awwww man. we're been listening to it for 6 years straight --, we're teenagers, we cant actually obey every rule. even the teacher said 'i want you all to read the book rules and regulation so you can break the rules' more specific she said 'cg mau kamu khatam tu buku atu spya kamu dpt langar peraturan skulah' yup. i heard it with my own two ears, one being talking with my friend that is ;p

so we went out of the audi with a last announcement 'after break please go to your respective classes that have been set for each and one of you' breaks ends at 10. we went out at 955. oh wow, great. so we didnt managed to eat, and i went straight to my new unknown class, General Paper.

when i entered the class, being on the 3rd floor no less --" , everyone looked at me, like i was the center of attention in that silent little class. i saw a few farmiliar faces but not that close with them, some i was even awkward cause it was his classmate --" ,thought she did smile, so i went to the other side of the class and found an old friend's friend which i find a nice person. so i sad next to her and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited until the sir finally said 'okay i think we just start with out small introductory on Genaral Paper.' and you know how it went.

after GP was my PS which means personal studies =3 so i was free of class, and we were supposedly asked to study privately and find that time to look for out teachers and all that. but hey, it was the first day of school! why would we start looking for out teachers --" so after PS was Lunch which was for another hour. yes, i got 2 hours of freedom =3

and during that time, he as in the him i've been talking about msg-ed me. he was asking where i was. i knew what it was, he wanted to borrow my laptop for a while so i told him i was at the canteen simple as that --, hahaha. then when i met him,

'd mana ko ne?'

aaa....canteen'

'--" awuu....krg bah ehh, belurus ;p '

hahaha, canteen =)

so he went to follow me take my laptop from my bag and he was standing next to babe where i notice he got taller! damn him, now i'm shorter! so yeah, he borrowed my laptop and i had to sit at my seat for almost class time (1pm) where he actually told me he was going back at 1230. i almost thought he brought it to his house --" but yeah, he went and returned my laptop still feeling the happy feeling when i'm with him yet starting to get used to it.

after lunch i went to class, maths was on my timetable and i went to the class but no one was there. i waited up til 10 minutes, being there 5 minutes early and still no one was there, so i went to cek back my timetable. turns out i had Chemistry! NOT maths and well, try running in baju kurung with a heavy bag that contains a laptop with books and a heavy pencil case, down from the 2nd floor to the other side of the school, climbed the 3rd floor of another block and when you reached class, everyone was looking at you including the teacher. what was worst, i didnt know a single female in there except for 2 girls which their seat was full! so sadly enough, i had to sit behind ALONE. T.T

after maybe 5 minutes, i thought it was longer cause i was sweating like shit and i smell --" and i was preoccupied with trying not to diffuse my smell to the whole lab and a lot of this was running in my head like the teacher might kill me and stuff when she said, alright class, thats it for today, i'll see you tomorrow' when i looked at my watch, phone, it was still 30 minutes till class ended. so yup. wasted my time running around the school --"

so i called my mom and i went home. fell asleep in the car due to exhaustion.

Happy New Year!

got in from the net (thank you google)

Happy New Year everyone who is reading this post =) i hope you all had a great New Year celebration with your family and friends =]

my New Year celebration is as always with my family and a call from my loved one every year. only this year i'm single so no calls for me (sad) anyway, =) gotta have a New Years Resolution right?

my Resolution

- Study HARDER than usual (i hope)

- Finally try to move on

- talk back with him

- make new friends

- keep my old friends as well

- be a good daughter to my mommy and daddy ;p

- hope to post more this year on my blog

- find a boyfriend? =O

- figure out what to do with my free time by the end of the year.

my New Year celebration =)

is it that easy to move on?

Awful.

its awful. why? cause i cant do it. it hurts. fuck this.

feel like doing this *picture below* except i'm not that pretty and i cant find a rose right now. and whats that red thing on her hands?

Just got back from KL

OH MYYYY!!! do you know how long i've tried to log in to my blog ac????? almost 2 hours!!! why?? cause i frekin forgot my password and! when i did, i got lost at the verifying my ac. which was also another, WTF moment --" damn it. Anyway, so i FINALLY logged in to my blog.

Heyy! I'm back from KL or Melaka or Port Dicksom in Negeri Sembilan =D my flight just arrived to day and i was away form my family for a week, since i was going there with my cousins. anyway, i had fun, tiring but fun =) not in the mood to tell how it went in detail but we went all around by foot so now i cant walk without feeling the ache of it ==, it was fun. REALLY! especially KL where we were there during chrismas eve and new years eve as well and the place was crowded!! they didnt even recognised me and my cousins as Bruneian. they thought we were somewhere Orang Sabah or Philippians or even Indonesian. =O very funny. =D

Hospital

went to the hospital yesterday, hospital Muara. man as it gotten bigger. hahaha. anyway, so was waiting for the doctor to call me about my eye. i knew it was pitutan, only, mom wasnt sure. so when the doctor went to check my eye, he said it was pitutan. it was normal and bla bla bla. sadly, he didnt give any med for it cause, he said it'll cure on its own. and if it's still there for another....lets say, 2 weeks. then i should go to the doctors again and ask for some antibiotics cause my body is too weak. --" hope it'll go away when i'm in KL.