A little swollen eye

my right eye is a little swollen. i dont know how but its been aching for the past 2 days. now its a little swollen so i think i have to see a doctor --" look at how its almost unseen yet so seen-able. (what am i saying?)

i dont think you could see the different in the colour o.o right side is a lot redder than the left side actually

see a small line there??

i myself cant really see it =O

Dresses

i love dresses, i dont know why but i love em =O i just hope you guys could see the picture~ x)

When i was a kid

When we were kids. we didnt know out parents have to have sex to have us. when i was a kid, i thought they just have to sleep in one bed and *poff* 'i'm in the tummy'

when i was a kid i used to think i can change my life and more to someone else's by day. but i never tried it cause it never occurred to me that i couldnt. and then it hit me that i'm going to be 'me' for the rest of my life, and i was horrified o.o

When i was a kid i was so quite that dad always forgets to drop me off to my school.

When i was a kid i never liked taking pictures of myself. now look at me, a cam-whore.

When i was a kid, i thought kissing was...well......nothing.

When i was a kid, my hair was too long for everyone to not try to tied it up.

When i was a kid, i believed i can have superpowers and would jumped on my bed imagining flames or fire balls came out of my hands.

When i was a kid, 'i'm calling your mom!!' was the most scariest thing ever.

When i was a kid, boys was stupid and ugly. now look at me, having to hold a scream when i see a hot guyy or a hot body ;p

when i was a kid, i dont minggle much with my cousins.

When i was a kid, i was bullied by this one girl who is also my friend at that time. now i'm dont give a damn to people who talk ass about me, cause well, their just jealous.

When i was a kid, all i did was watch tv.

When i was a kid, a computer was like 'WOW!!' now we have ipad1 and ipad2 with iphones and itouch.

The big IF

there is this guy and a girl. they were friends, and it lead to love. usually, people seem to think, hey it'll be a happy ending. but sometimes it isnt and people move past that. but do people ever wonder what happens after they break up? what if they get back together? what if their sworn enemies. what if their friends. what if they became bestfriends?

like, seriously, theres a big IF in everything and you can never be certain about everything. its just like how i thought they can always be friends. but now, it seem like she still loves him. and he seem to love her too. but they put their love aside and they put their worries first. they wish each other happiness even if it hurts them in return.

so tell me what type of relationship is that? are they actually still lovers, or their just lying their ass off with each other. his jealous, shes hurt. come on. they talk particularly everyday. and yet how do they expect to move on by that? can they? or are they just going to ignore the feeling they feel for each other.

you know the funny thing is, they both think that they can never be together anymore. not now, but their sure there is a second chance. but when are they going to take that second chance where its already right there in front of them. what sign do they have to see or get if for them to be together again?

nothing.

so tell me this, why are they in love with each other where each of them are wiling to give each other away. they knew they wanted each other. so why not?

Supernatural

oooOOooOOooooo~~ its about ghost and demons and devils and angels. yup, its something we think that dont exist, or does it? ;p

its about this brother~ Sam and Dean Winchester, Dean being the big bro and Sam the trying so hard to tell Dean and Bobby his mature enough to have his own way. anyway not going to say about their life, which is also awesome, i'm just going to say its a really awesome series, scary and you dont feel like sleeping alone at night but you know it wouldnt do you no good cause you'll die!! hahaha. okay, kidding. they have 7 seasons, currently showing season 7 already and let me tell you, its getting harder and harder NOT to stop watching. its like an addiction. but then, you also need to have time to keep track with their series right?

Season 1 was mostly about looking for their dad and they mostly meet and kill ghost that are really scary. like Bloddy Mary and the Women In White. yupp! that is freaky, and its season 1!

Season 2 is about still looking where their dad was and who actually killed her mom and Jessy as well as knowing what is wrong with Sam. Their dad is back btw but he made a deal with the devil just to save Dean.

Season 3 is where Dean made a deal to save sam! i know right? its a family of making deals and saving each other, sweet? ;p hahaha. okay, so Dean had a year to live and so was actually a short season.

Season 4 is where everything started twisting around. Sam was making out with a demon called Ruby (which is his wife in real life) and *drum roll* Dean is back from the dead. well, his back from Hell. an angel called Castiel said he brought Dean back from Hell. oh and the demons are trying to get Lucifer out of the cage in Hell.

Season 5 its a heaven and hell war. angels and demons are fighting to the death and well, Sam and Dean are in the middle of it! Lucifer is out of hell and is walking the earth. and what do you know, Sam is the true vessel for Lucifer and Dean is the true vessel for Micheal. so twisted!!

Season 6 Sam was in hell, Lucifer is back in the cage with Micheal. Cas died and undied again. and Sam was back. Dean had a normal life, he had a family with Ben and Lisa but the past was pulling him back. so when he knew Sam was back, everything crashed. theres also a catch thought, Sam was back, but without a soul.

Season 7 sam got his soul back, as well his memory of Hell. Dean is keeping secrets and theirs a new bad boy running the earth.

yup yup yup. i'm a fan. not hardcore but hay ;p what else am i going to do other than watch series?

First love (a little think called love)

i didnt know this story even exist until my friend introduced it to me. its a Thailand movie and i have never tried to watch movies like this. even thought it was a love story. so it actually shocked me that even Thailand people have good looking guys! =O (i live in a limited way of life, sorry for the wrong judgement with good looking guys)

anyway, its a story about a really ugly girl who fell in love with her senior. he was so good looking that a lot of girl admire him and try to steal his heart out. so this girl, her name is Nam, with the help of her friends, try to show her senior, his name is Shone, that she likes him.they had a love book, and used every method in for Shone to fall in love with Nam. Sadly, nothing worked and Nam was always 1 sept behind everyone else.

ugly duckling Nam

there was even a scene where Nam left Shone chocolates on his bike but it actually melted due to the fact that she and her friends forgot they live in a tropical climate. there was also a scene where her friends gave her a make over and she turnout to be yellow. but it did got Shone's attention and she was left yelling her way out happily.

by her 3rd year, she got whitter AND more beautiful. she gain more admires but Shone never seem to notice her until when shone's old friend Top transfered to their school and Top fell head over heels for Nam. he proposed and they dated. long story short, the broke up after that cause Nam was never in love with Top, she told Top that she was in love with someone else.

the duck changed to a beautiful swan, 3rd yr Nam

so Top then told Shone about it and he begged Top not to be with Nam, cause he loved her so much that the thought of his beatfriend being with the girl he loved hurt him. Shone agreed.

Shone managed to hit a penalty goal and Nam was there watching as she was practicing being a drum major.

by the end of the year, Shone was going to Bangkok for a football scholarship and Nam was going to America staying with her father. but before that, she confessed her love to Shone but she was too late. Shone was already with someone else. it was a REALLY sad scene btw. i cried D':

Nam confession by the pool giving Shone a white rose with a card that had the Mr. Button.

after falling into the pool and saying she was okay. poor Nam =/

Well, i'm not going to tell you the ending cause i dont really wanna spoil you people if your interested ;p but i will tell you that Shone had a baby on the first scene of the movie. *gasped!* xD

I'll always have my pooh around.

POOH!!! (left) my lovely cutee stuffed animal =3 gehehe. it was a present by my bestfriend and i always have it lying around in my house, my room, next to my pillow =3 i even bring it with me when i'm overseas. anyway, yes, its that important to me. its actually helped me sleep if i dont have my ayaa around. anyway, so when i'm sad or lonely, i would hug that stuffed animal, my baby pooh, and it'll wipe my tears away. yeah well, so what i have a stuff animal, everyone have it too sometimes. =)

Honest Night

you know how you and your loved one always talk and talk and talk and talk and talk~ and theres always something you wanted to ask but your not sure if its true or not when they answer. so one night, i was talking on the internet with my love one and i told him,

'wanna have an honest night?'

'whats that?'

'i dunno, i was just being random =O but do you?'

'haha okay what is it?'

'aaa how about we both be honest tonight. and just for tonight, if you get what i mean'

'and then what?'

'umm...then we start with the questions?'

so yeah. that night i actually knew a lot after that and like wise he also knew about it too. thought we mostly asked about stupid stuff, you guys dont really have to know. so we havent played that game for a while until tonight. i didnt knew if he actually wanted to play it cause well...we werent together anymore =o

so we played, i was really bored so i asked anything that was in my head. it was funny cause it was a really detailed answer. and then, somewhere in that conversation we managed to let our feelings out, yet again. so being brothers and sisters was a good idea yet a very bad idea. well, not going to talk about that. but it did worked. we both managed to say what we felt about each other and well, it wasnt like it was awkward. it was good to finally let it all out.

thus, having an honest night was a good idea for me and him x)

morning?

morning is a greeting. its valid from the time you wake in the morning until 1200. anyway, i was just being funny.

gooood morning to you all, its 11 10am right now, (ignore the time on the post, cause its crazy, hence not true) and well, what can i say, i was NOT suppose to wake up this early. i slept at 340am last night and was suppose to wake up latter than this. anyway, how i woke up? its cause my mom woke me up just to tell me to have breakfast. so i wondered, while i was still under my blanky, why would my mom wake me up just for breakfast...the past couple of days, i was waking at at 11 or 12 and had breakfast on my own. anyway, so it turns out she wanted me to cook the rice --, so yeah.

okay so i woke up pretty pissed. cause i'm not really a morning person. but i am a night person xD gehehe.

sunglasses

finally have my own sunglasses. no degree like my sis but hey, at least i have one ;p sadly enough, it wasnt my kind of liking. my sis was like 'no that not good' 'ugly' 'it look like a guy's style' 'nooooo' and yeah..you get the picture. T.T so i was heartbroken...and she was the one who picked it. and well. maybe i was hyper with it and took pictures with it. but it didnt really match with my heart =/

what i really want it thisss.....

=O